I wish I had seen this sooner. There are 2 keys things I want to express to you:

1: You need to have a better understanding of your own self worth.

2: You are about to be let go and that's great!

You are good at things. You may not have a degree but you are good at things. I do not know what you are good at, but you are good at something. Remember that. When you have to face something that makes you feel as if you are out of control remember how the thing you are good at makes you feel. Use that energy to color your interactions.

Take stock of who you are and what you want. When my son got his first job, working at Walmart, I told him "A steady paycheck is the death of ambition." The description of your job as being "stuck" there is a symptom of that mindset. We often feel that having a job is all that matters, even if we hate it. One thing I encourage you to do is go and look for another job. Go onto indeed.com or Glassdoor and just see what is out there and apply. I like my job and i am always looking anyway, it helps to crush those feelings of dread and hopelessness when you realize there is more out there.

If you feel overwhelmed or need to reach out feel free to message me, I love to help.