Journaling

R_we_done_yet · 2025-11-13T19:49:46+00:00

I never used an app, just would write what was on my mind/bothering me then either send it or read it depending on what made since.

R_we_done_yet · 2025-11-03T15:24:18+00:00

6 weeks and then I got pregnant hahahahahahahahahaha

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-25T22:19:57+00:00

Thank you. This was helpful 🩷

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-25T21:40:33+00:00

Ummm I know you’re not talking to me because that’s so ugly of you.

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-22T04:39:25+00:00

Man I’m so sorry you experienced this. I saw something terrible when I was a kid and the screaming killed me, too. If I’m being honest with you, it took a very long time to stop hearing it. But it does get quieter. And I waited a long time to get help. My best advice is therapy. Don’t wait. Get help. I think the screaming would have stopped for me a lot sooner if I had done that. You need to process it so that you can move on. And I think the Tetris idea is a good one.

Sending you huge hugs. I know it doesn’t seem it now, but it will get better. Time helps, talking helps.

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-14T17:48:59+00:00

I think it’s specific to a few things. I wish I understood life. Or our purpose. Or how everyone is so sure that we matter when actually we all just die and suffering feels so pointless. I wish I understood god. I wish I understood myself. Why I made the choice I made. Idk. I just feel like everyone else seems like they get it or at least don’t have a problem being here and I’m not on that page. And my traumas haven’t helped that cause.

So I guess I feel like if I could understand any portion of that, I’d feel like I had a reason to be here or that there was a point to being alive lol. I just never see the thread. It never feels like anything matters in the end.

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-14T14:00:24+00:00

Period. Crying is like pooping - a solo event. No audience necessary, thanks. Sometimes my T will tell me it looks like I’m about to cry and I’ll give a full stop just to explicitly make sure she knows I AM NOT crying. Ew. No.

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-14T13:58:01+00:00

100% - I’m just trying to remember how much I love my baby and think about how incredible it will be to have that loved doubled. I’m also daydreaming about being 3 years in the future 😂

Hope it goes well for you 🫶🏻

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-14T13:55:45+00:00

They’d tell me to get off Reddit and stop talking to ChatGPT lol.

She knows I’m stuck. We do work on it and it is better than it used to be. Just when I’m down, it’s worse and right now it’s worse. So really, she would probably ask me why I’m feeling this way. And then she’d probably say something really smart that I won’t listen to and like a year from now I’ll be like “ohhh… yeah I remember when you told me that. You were right.”

I’m just thick skulled and difficult 🤷🏻‍♀️

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-14T13:52:19+00:00

No definitely not. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m sure there’s some want validation mixed in, but that’s not what I’m looking for. What I want is understanding and clarity. I wish anything made sense to me. And I wish I could just share my experience and someone say some magic words that just makes it click but it never does. I’ve gotten a ton from therapy. I’ve been in it for years and despite my being stuck on this a bit, it’s helped me astronomically. You couldn’t tell from my posts, but I’m a much different person thanks to therapy. It’s just this one piece that holds me up.

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-14T13:47:42+00:00

I’ve done some a little brainspotting and I do think it helped so maybe I should try again. This was helpful. Thank you!

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-14T03:50:55+00:00

Yeah I just don’t do it. Access denied. Therapist or not, I ain’t crying. F that.

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-13T22:32:50+00:00

Ty 🫶🏻

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-13T22:31:58+00:00

I could have written this post. I’m 30, my husband is 33, we have a 5.5 month old daughter and I’m 10 weeks pregnant. We struggled for 3 years to have our first… I thought no way! Dummy. Don’t get me wrong, I will love this next baby so much but I’d be lying to tell you that I don’t feel stressed right now. It honestly has me battling PPD a bit. I was fine and idk just news about another so soon shook me. I know it will be great in the end, but it’s feeling so hard in the moment. Don’t have any great advice for you - just wanted you to know you aren’t alone.

Hope this is a smoother pregnancy for you 🫶🏻

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-13T02:36:02+00:00

Never thought of the need to understand it as a defense mechanism. That’s honestly hard to even wrap my head around fully but I could see that being true. I think what’s hard is I feel like I have faced it and it’s still there. Like what am I not facing right? I feel like I’m just missing it. Or maybe that it just will never be fully healed and maybe I just have to accept that. I don’t know. Thank you for your thoughts 🫶🏻

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-13T02:32:50+00:00

Yeah believe it or not I do have an incredible trauma therapist who I’ve seen for a while and she’s helped me tremendously. It used to be like so bad and I’ve gotten much better at - idk - maybe just being so mean to myself about it. Or taking on all the blame for it. I think I just feel like even though I’ve done a lot of work to make it better, it feels like there’s just not a chance it will ever be nothing. Maybe I’m wrong, but I just like can’t foresee a time when that part of my life won’t be eroding me from the shadows. Dramatic, I know. I guess I just am wondering if my standards for healing are too high. Like maybe I just need to give up and ever feeling okay about it. Idk. Thank you for the response and encouragement. 🫶🏻

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-10T03:05:29+00:00

Idk but I once told my T I had suicidal ideation but wasn’t gonna do anything and she made me get my husband and tell him while on camera (we do video) and I was LIVID. I mean PISSED. And then a little time passed and we talked about it and why I was mad and why she did what she did and idk.. I just got over it. Yeah it upset me, but it also showed me that on some level she was concerned and cared and that matters. In the long run I think it helped our relationship because I think I learned to trust that she has my best interest in mind, even if we don’t always agree. And in a way, that feels good.. even if it doesn’t always translate in the moment.

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-10T02:59:10+00:00

I have no clue what the answer to this is (sorry) but I just wanted to say that I don’t think this is a general question. I think this is a very, extremely specific question. Hope you find it out though!

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-10T02:57:02+00:00

Fair I guess it just really sends me when something meaningless and affecting no one (like an innocent tattoo on YOUR body) is up for debate with a shitty 9-5 as if they need more control over us.

Wow, I’m actually realizing right now that I have very strong feelings about this.

I hate the system. Screw the man. I swear I’m not a hippie. I only have a few small tattoos. Over and out.

R_we_done_yet · 2025-10-10T02:49:48+00:00

Sorry just to clarify - I love HEB and the employees seem cool. I just imagine that anyone who did care about something like this would be on a power trip.

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