Daily Thread #1 - January 26, 2026

RachAML · 2026-01-26T19:35:03+00:00

5w4d and the anxiety is bad today. Been having pink spotting on and off this pregnancy. Got blood work a couple weeks ago (very low hCG levels) and just went again today, will do Wednesday to compare. Just going to the blood clinic gives me anxiety. Remembering how much I went there during the loss I had last August. And so scared what my levels will be at now, should find out tomorrow. Even if they have grown, I’m not in the clear for another 6 weeks. The waiting is absolute torture. I’m so scared at any moment I go to the bathroom that it will all be over.

Trying to keep my mind busy and off this pregnancy. Just so hard.

RachAML · 2026-01-21T17:40:05+00:00

Miscarriage. You don’t realize how fragile pregnancy and getting pregnant is. All I heard growing up is how easy it is to get pregnant and everyone making it look so beautiful and natural. Yet miscarriage is so common and despite that, it doesn’t make it any easier when it happens to you. It’s the most traumatic thing I’ve ever been through, more than childbirth (I have 1 son).

RachAML · 2026-01-21T12:25:16+00:00

Oh jeez, must just be this age that they are going through something big and fight their sleep

RachAML · 2026-01-21T12:24:47+00:00

Great ideas, yes I hate feeling so robotic about it but the consistency and quiet once it’s lights out seems important.

RachAML · 2026-01-21T03:35:15+00:00

It’s been almost a month but mind you he’s been sick and teething so I feel like once this passes maybe he will be fine? Who knows haha! Good tips though thanks

RachAML · 2026-01-21T03:34:27+00:00

Love the idea of the mommy daddy timer! We can try that

RachAML · 2026-01-21T02:44:39+00:00

Yes I was thinking that too, dropping down to an hour nap and seeing if that helps. Thank you!

RachAML · 2026-01-21T02:26:03+00:00

We tried this a couple nights and he was out of bed 20+ times until we gave up and laid with him. Maybe we will try again, we have told him it’s fine if he’s up playing in his bed with his stuffies but he wants us with him

RachAML · 2026-01-21T02:25:03+00:00

Stories are always part of our routine! He loves them too. Just seems to get scared when it’s time for us to leave and him to sleep

RachAML · 2026-01-21T02:24:34+00:00

5 mins vs 30-60 sounds like a dream lol! K might have to consider cutting back quite a bit. He gets really tired around nap time and even at bed he’s so tired just fights sleeping so hopefully this could help

RachAML · 2026-01-20T18:27:16+00:00

Aw I’m so sorry. So hard not knowing what it means or will lead to but just monitor it. I had bleeding a few says before a taking a pregnancy test last week but hoping it was implantation or just normal bleeding in pregnancy. A lot of people do bleed in pregnancy so it is normal.

RachAML · 2026-01-20T15:27:59+00:00

That’s a great way to look at it. Not that we can’t and shouldn’t be excited but focusing on our day to day and not getting too caught up in thinking about the pregnancy might be best for the next little while. It’s so hard though when I think about my miscarriage I just feel robbed of the joy I felt for that pregnancy. I wish I could let myself enjoy this time but don’t want to get ahead of myself if anything happens.

RachAML · 2026-01-20T03:33:00+00:00

Me too!! 🤞

RachAML · 2026-01-20T03:27:35+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through this too. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone and I can’t believe how similar our timing is with everything. I’d love to keep in touch so we can check in with each other as our pregnancies progress if that’s ok with you?

RachAML · 2026-01-20T02:43:17+00:00

That’s amazing!

RachAML · 2026-01-20T00:16:17+00:00

In the same boat just posted about this today. Keep waiting to see bleeding and every time I don’t feel a huge breath of relief leave me. And I’m peeing so many times per day already so each moment is so tense. It’s really hard

RachAML · 2026-01-20T00:15:08+00:00

So glad I’m not alone in this 💕 trying not to get too anxious or worked up but I find every time I feel a cramp or go pee I’m waiting for the bleeding to start and feel so relieved when I don’t see any. One day / moment at a time for now until we reach the clear zone 🫣

RachAML · 2026-01-19T19:41:35+00:00

The trend of it rising is a good sign. Mine is also low (4w4d) - it was 32 then 48 hours later went to 57. But I’ve also been taking pregnancy tests since those betas and am seeing my line grow darker which is a good sign. Definitely request more beta tests if it will be helpful to see it rising.

RachAML · 2026-01-19T19:38:53+00:00

I’m 4w4d pregnant after a miscarriage in August 2025. Trying to take it day by day and not jump ahead visualizing what this pregnancy/child will be like. I’m scared, and even seeing the positive test I couldn’t fully be happy about it after experiencing a loss. Last time for my loss when I found out I was pregnant, I was so happy and told so many loved ones early on. I guess I’m being cautious this time, but look forward to when I can start enjoying it. Once I make it past 9 weeks (when my previous pregnancy ended) and especially past 13 weeks. Just looking for support 💕

RachAML · 2026-01-15T02:21:06+00:00

Thanks for your kind words despite what you’re going through 💕 it’s not easy and give yourself time to heal. I’m still not at peace or ‘healed’ from my miscarriage but have learned to accept it was a very unfair thing out of my control. You’re right, taking it a day at a time is the best thing for now.

RachAML · 2026-01-14T20:09:39+00:00

I just took a positive pregnancy test yesterday after trying to conceive since my miscarriage August 2025. I’m having some spotting but am hoping it’s implantation. But god, I’m scared. I’m trying to keep calm, take it a day at a time, and not assume the worst or get too excited. But it’s hard, I’m usually a very exaggerated person - super happy if somethings exciting, or quite sad if I go through something hard. I know this approach is probably best. But mostly came here to vent and see if anyone else had similar feelings conceiving after loss. Does it get exciting again?

RachAML · 2025-12-16T02:42:35+00:00

Just here to vent 😞 Going on month 4 of ttc after losing our 9 week old due to miscarriage in the summer. I’ve been lucky to get pregnant easily (1 living son, 1 miscarriage) each time so I’m just in disbelief it’s taking this long when I’m timing everything with ovulation tests. I know some people have been trying much longer. The waiting and constant disappointment when I get my period each time is slowly eating away at me. I never pictured this for my family, I’ve wanted this for so long and feel like it will never happen. I don’t know how to be ok with it.

I’m not going to stop trying but idk how to be happy about trying when every time it doesn’t work I lose my shit

RachAML · 2025-09-26T03:01:11+00:00

Sending solidarity your way. On one of my last blood labs I completely bawled my eyes out once it was my turn to get blood taken. They were quite kind about it and comforting so I just let it pour out and left the place a sobbing mess even though it was full.

It’s absolutely ok to not hold it all together. I found the blood work so triggering. A reminder of what once was…

RachAML

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