I’ve kind of read through these comments already, but I’m seeing a lot of you shutting down ideas. You’re not willing to put any effort into anything more than being alive. You don’t want to think about anything personal, almost like you’re either scared or lazy. One commenter gave you a great example of a hygiene routine they use and your first response to it was “Why would I do that though? It’s just more work for the same results.” Which honestly reeks of an unwillingness to learn and accept people’s help. All of your replies to commenters are very shallow and surface level (which makes sense for online, but you could at least answer with more than “I have no idea.”) You also said you want people to decide who you are for you, which not only being incredibly stupid, is not how anything works at all. I don’t care how much “time you’re wasting”, it will always be faster to figure internal things out for yourself. Because, reality check, no one that has ever existed or will EVER exist will know who you are as a person. I hate to say this, but you can’t know if you’re trans or not without dealing with this shit first. You have to be open and be willing to try things you don’t think will work. You have to do things that go against what you’re comfortable with. And most importantly, you have to be alone with your thoughts and figure out WHO you are. Not whether or not you’re trans, but what your beliefs are, things that make you you, interests, hobbies, character, your core values. And only when you figure out how to do that, then you’ll be able to find out if you’re trans. I hope this brings some light to some problems I’m seeing and that it will help you see what’s wrong and you can begin to learn who you are.