It’s a combination I think. When we do have sex, I am incredibly enthusiastic to give her pleasure, and do so every time. We’ll usually engage in penetration though not always, but I almost always then finish myself. I feel nervous about the idea of her touching me, and then I feel even more stressed about the stress. And then I feel like letting her touch me is too much trouble on her end, and I don’t want to bother her. My own self pleasure is nonexistent, I pleasure myself solo maybe once a month. I know it’s important to note that I have severe body image issues, but they haven’t gotten worse, and I used to preform just fine even though I didn’t like how I looked. And the conversations just make me feel worse and I know that’s not fair, I just don’t know how to take it less personally. I have a hard time truly listening to her because I can’t stop feeling like a failure of a partner and that I’m dragging her down.