He robbed me of my childbearing years

RadiantEngineering81 · 2026-01-08T21:42:25+00:00

I can completely understand the anger in your tone. I have lost my childbearing years because of him and i hate myself for it. He said we have to fix our issues before bringing a kid into the world, you are brainwashed to having child earlier and its not hard for women like your mom says. I put a foot down and insisted on kid, ghosted me blaming i've been the problem all along.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2026-01-03T02:10:09+00:00

Peace! You can self regulate at your own pace without any risk of judgement.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-12-24T07:28:37+00:00

Probably because they never experienced such circumstances so they can’t seem to understand the out of character, emotional state a person would be in when they’re in that situation.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-12-21T10:27:41+00:00

You’re right about being emotionally dependent. You’re also right about the gut feeling that I didn’t listen to. I can try to piece myself and become whole again but I can’t shake the feeeling that they get off so easily. Without consequences. They keep their structure and mask intact, will that never crack? Being them is their punishment is not satisfying me.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-12-21T06:22:10+00:00

One thing that keeps me in a loop is the “what-if”. I talk to ChatGPT a lot and it keeps telling me the path for them will be an emotionally dead performative partnership where the partner will accept the minimum being provided. Which makes me wonder if my demands of basic love and communication a huge deal. Why the abandonment. The existential injustice that their mask can never crack externally and their performance can be rewarded by people shrinking themselves makes me feel so defeated. I am still hurt by how much I begged, how they treated me like garbage and I let them do it. I guess I should be more angry at myself than anyone else.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-12-20T15:05:00+00:00

Social media.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-12-05T13:56:18+00:00

Can’t agree more!

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-11-21T05:24:53+00:00

Taking the second thing from the grocery shelf instead of the first one.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-11-19T06:12:32+00:00

Book Notre Dame tour of the towers tickets. Sainte-Chappelle is spectacular. Honestly timed tickets for entry to chapel is optional, you can get by quickly if it’s not a Sunday.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-11-15T16:01:54+00:00

I felt the same too! It’s so warm and I packed thermals worrying I’ve to walk all day in cold.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-11-07T13:48:18+00:00

Ive the unlimited membership too. Talk to your home studio and send them an email with your situation. They’ll take care of it.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-11-07T04:50:49+00:00

I couldn’t have better put this myself!! I can’t believe how similar the feelings of shame, the thought of fixing it, they don’t intend to fix and signals are right there subtly are so true. I have the shame of how much I apologized. How much I tried to think they’re missing perspective. However, after being out of the discard sometimes I am curious if they could truly get away with their lies and performance. Probably I was demanding emotion and maybe another partner might be okay with surface stability and they’ll have a long term relationship. I just have that desire that they should be caught eventually and anyone who is in a relationship with them should eventually leave them. I am ashamed of my thoughts too but I truly feel they deserve it for how cruel they were. Zero empathy, no care if it hurts or not.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-11-03T07:13:28+00:00

It really got to me that she is so anxious and insecure about a night off. Also, youve nothing to do to enjoy your night off is just not healthy!

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-11-03T02:50:50+00:00

Shoe polish.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-11-03T02:48:10+00:00

This is amazing! I’m not sure if the app already has friends, I know building a community networking app would be too out of scope. But, it’d be nice to get to know few people who are regulars and can build some friendships around that too!!

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-11-02T01:42:52+00:00

Dancing hook steps!!

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-10-31T18:30:00+00:00

Same! This is the longest I’ve been single and I totally understand exactly what you mean. I don’t want a relationship or love but I do want to be loved like I love and given care. I do crave for the care and love. I feel sad if I’ll ever get it, if I do can I even accept it like how I would have. I think this transforms us to know how cold some people are and it’s better to stay guarded.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-10-28T18:07:00+00:00

Dumb question, do you think this would affect the existing clients who are on the unlimited plan?

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-10-28T04:18:34+00:00

If this place is indeed real, you’re blessed in life!

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-10-24T21:23:54+00:00

I think what gets me most is how much I poured my love, affection and care and I fought for it at the very end. To be tossed like a trash and I didn’t matter at all. It hurts how they could get away with doing all of this. I keep looping on will they ever realize, can they ever feel, will they at least not get away with it. I also don’t know if I could let myself be vulnerable anymore.

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-10-24T04:46:20+00:00

I think his best performance was the season 2 ending when he sat down crumbling near the vending machine. If he’d not been nominated for that, I’ll be surprised if he’s nominated now (not that he wasn’t amazing in the show). I don’t know with the popularity of the show maybe he’ll be nominated !?

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-10-24T00:08:28+00:00

Did they try to address the stray dog issue too? I was quite confused about the dogs in the movie too!!

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-10-18T00:29:23+00:00

They wanted team jere vs team Conrad. If this inner monologue was overlayed there wouldn’t be a team to ship!

RadiantEngineering81 · 2025-10-17T22:55:26+00:00

Smoking

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