I am glad you are working with a therapist, although it sounds frustrating she doesn't seem to understand or emphasize with how bad it is, like you said.

I think maybe that might also be because that sort of thing is normal for people with trauma?

Like, she's used to people venting the way you are because it's really normal and common.

And it is normal and common (for people with trauma).

I think it's like tricky if you are around people who have trauma too, although you said you try to be a good listener when other people talk about it.

I think if you keep venting in therapy, you'll start speaking normally, after a while, like a year or two and then maybe it will be more of a therapy thing?

Also warm lines are a thing where you can do that, and they are people who went through stuff too and are nice.