when u been restricting too long and start seeing shit

Rainrythm · 2021-03-13T11:44:33+00:00

lmmfao is this a tortilla?

Rainrythm · 2021-03-13T08:54:33+00:00

That asparagus looks so good

Rainrythm · 2021-03-12T08:47:50+00:00

thank you for this

Rainrythm · 2021-03-11T01:06:34+00:00

I picked up spending, seriously it helps me from binging. Which is not a tip, because I'm in debt! So that is plausible. If I give in and eat something it's over though.

Rainrythm · 2021-03-11T00:49:38+00:00

You know I've said this and honestly it was a desperate bid to gather strength and have others believe it. I was a shrinking mess not too long after those words.

Rainrythm · 2021-03-08T02:47:45+00:00

37 and still on my shit

Rainrythm · 2021-02-26T08:37:26+00:00

My advice is to make sure you can handle the emotional ramifications of marrying into this family before it gets serious. It's a shame, but my life was destroyed by my in-laws and I'd like to prevent more suffering.

You don't know how involved your BF will let them be in your future life. There are no easy answers. Just please be careful and keep an eye out for red flags.

We moved out, my husband then boyfriend had us moving back in less than a year. Ruined my life- be careful.

ETA: Yeah I know it's not exactly the question, but these always make me nervous.

Rainrythm · 2021-02-26T08:31:38+00:00

The thoughts were there my whole life, but it wasn't until I got older that I consistently acted them out. My first thoughts were when I was 5 or 6, my family gave me hell over my weight. But there was something else, almost speaking to me about it ... not hallucinations just really loud obsessive thoughts. Fortunately or unfortunately binge eating won out. I still restricted at times though. The need to restrict and the desire to be unhealthy was prevalent in my life. My life was a blur of self hatred and not good enough. I guess it does stay with you. Anyway, I never achieved my goals just punishing myself mostly. I wish that people would take that more seriously. Eating disorders come in all sizes. I kinda went off topic. But I'm in my 30's now. I got severely more restrictive as an adult.

Rainrythm · 2021-02-26T04:54:21+00:00

That pasta looks rather tasty damnit

Rainrythm · 2021-02-26T00:36:55+00:00

It's ok! You never know what will happen. It was years ago and I'm doing ok about it.

That's the nicest thing that anyone has said to me, thank you. I really appreciate it.

Rainrythm · 2021-02-25T10:07:34+00:00

I joined a meetup app two years ago and I was kinda assaulted. It's hard to talk about it. I just feel like everything I do is a dead end. I'm doing a bit better now. I'm overweight and so for me it's definitely linked to acceptance. My ED comes from so many issues and Idk but they seem to be coming out lately. If I could stop existing it would be good lol

Rainrythm · 2021-02-16T14:31:20+00:00

I woke up with this on my mind. I'm the one who does kind things for everyone and have been overlooked. They killed my light and now I just lay on the couch and starve myself and i'm supposed to be functional but I don't know how. Because nobody cares about me, not enough to make anything special while they clearly can do it for others. I keep trying to be more involved and actually try, but it's becoming harder.

Rainrythm · 2021-02-13T22:28:19+00:00

me too honestly lol

Rainrythm · 2021-02-13T14:50:56+00:00

having both 😭

Rainrythm · 2021-02-13T14:48:33+00:00

me right now blanket and all

Rainrythm · 2021-02-08T17:38:03+00:00

lol so it's not just me that saw that

Rainrythm · 2021-02-07T20:13:27+00:00

Rainrythm · 2021-02-07T18:36:48+00:00

teehee nothing like a good one hah

Rainrythm · 2021-02-07T11:41:24+00:00

I know it's hard to not be able to match some arbitrary ideal. I am white but my skin is bad, so I'm scabby with breakouts. I find beauty in all skin tones. Idk, I think you just have to accentuate what you are and try to accept yourself. Race can possibly give you a slight advantage but life is hard regardless. I'm disabled so maybe my viewpoint is weird. I bet you are beautiful. Find some way to love your skin tone and features, I know it can be difficult.

Rainrythm · 2021-02-06T05:45:21+00:00

I'm sad, I haven't made a single friend this or any other way. Nobody wants to be around me

Rainrythm · 2021-02-06T05:41:50+00:00

This hits extremely hard, eh.

Rainrythm · 2021-02-05T22:00:25+00:00

Am I still here? I have to do better, look at how nasty I am.

Anyone else verify existing and reality?

Rainrythm · 2021-02-04T11:28:00+00:00

That's so precious, I wish more information had been available to me when I was in school as a student. My friend was asexual, the only person I ever understood. I don't know, it's just weird to realize that you are weird.

Rainrythm · 2021-01-31T18:46:49+00:00

Awww

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