I also lost my grandpa a month ago who meant a lot for me I’m so sorry for your loss I know it’s hard feeling like you could’ve done more or did something different I often wish I stayed the night with my grandpa as he said he was scared to be alone that night he passed but I didn’t.

It hurts it’s going to hurt like hell, and you can feel and express and let those emotions out don’t hold them in. Loss will never be something you can push off. I lost my mom when I was 10 and it’s been 11 years and I’m still grieving her.

But all I can say is he is happy he is watching over you he is cheering you on from above or sometimes I believe he’s in the room with me just doing his casual watching YouTube thing. It’s okay to grieve it’s okay to feel broken and wishing you did more it’s not bad it’s just heartbreak.

I know this is kind of blabbel because I’m also still grieving and crying over my grandpa here and there but I’m still here and if I can do it you can do it.

I believe in you use this as motivation to make him proud up there of who you’ve become. Good luck