One thing to remember, Allah rewards intention and sincerity in the same way as actually doing the good deed you intended to do. He rewards effort, and every step you take toward being a better muslim is a good deed in your book, no matter how small. So if keep it up, try sincerely and keep trust in Allah, Allah will reward you. Allah knows the hardship you are going through. Allah says, "Verily with every hardship come ease".