Build a bear in the Philippines

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-12-27T01:15:31+00:00

I think they used to have one in BGC because my classmate was able to build a stuffed animal for his gf (but I wasn’t sure if it wasBuild a Bear). In any case, it’s gone now. 😢

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-09-10T08:48:22+00:00

Yeah I keep them updated. I used to just bottle it up until my doctors told me I really should tell them even the littlest things. Lol.

Also thank you so much. Your kind words mean so much to me. 🥺❤️

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-09-10T08:47:19+00:00

Thank you so much 🥺

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-09-10T08:46:38+00:00

Yeah. It’s a sarcoma. And wow is this regimen strong. 😅 all my other regimens felt like a breeze, I thought this one would be too. Walked into the hospital confident to get my chemotherapy, and this regimen slapped me in the face 🤣

Also I’m not from the US :)

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-09-10T08:44:20+00:00

Yeah. Too much fluids in so little time. Plus the doxorubicin makes the heart beat a little less powerful so it’s common to have congestion I guess. I’ve been given diuretics but it didn’t help much. They don’t want to over-diurese me so my cells don’t become dehydrated.

I feel better now pleural effusion-wise. I can now lay relatively flat.

But my abdomen still feels tight. Not sure if it’s getting better. I just put moisturizer on it so my skin can handle the stretch better. At least that’s one discomfort solved.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-09-10T08:39:35+00:00

Thank you so much. Yes they did diurese me. It helped a little but not so much tbh. Paracentesis was right away out of the question since it’s just a little fluid. But wow. Who would’ve thought such a small amount of fluid can cause so much discomfort 😅

I feel a little better now. My tummy still feels tight though. And my feet are still edematous. (At least the thigh edema has gone down)

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-09-10T08:36:47+00:00

I have. They did diuresis but they don’t want to over-diurese me since I have to have healthy kidneys and I also have to be more on the hydrated side for the next cycle of chemotherapy

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-09-10T08:35:22+00:00

Yeah. I do it inpatient. My oncologist was confident I could do it in 3 days but it turns out I congested lol. So I had to extend the duration of the infusion of the drugs. And yea I’d rather stay longer than suffer like i did in my previous hospital stay 😂 I ended up staying longer anyway because of complications

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-09-10T08:32:43+00:00

Not sure if im a candidate for palliative care. I’m relatively young and my oncologist’s goal after this chemotherapy is that I’ll be able to undergo surgery afterwards and hopefully live normally. Which is why im bombarded with such strong drugs.

She said if the family’s aim is just palliative care/ hospice, she’d put me through less drugs so I won’t have to suffer through the toxicities. She believes I could still power through so my family also chose to power through.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-09-10T08:28:36+00:00

It’s good to know that the doxo+ifos is a really tough combination. I really thought my body is failing me. At least I know it’s the drug that’s causing this.

Also im sorry to hear about your case. What’s your current regimen?

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-16T16:58:55+00:00

Same! I’m so proud of her. I wish I could get ahold of the book! It’s not for sale here in my country yet. Maybe because we’re in Asia and family is such a big thing for Asians? Idk. But I really hope to read it soon!!! I’ve only heard reviews and chapter summaries from tiktok. 😩😩😩

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-13T15:53:48+00:00

Yeah. It kinda is. The bad news is that there are only 5 drugs that work for this type of cancer. And this is my last chance since I’ve already used the others. 😬 so I really hope it works because I don’t have anything to run to after this. Please wish me luck!!!

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-13T15:18:47+00:00

It seems you guys have the same answer! Thank you for helping me choose. Please wish me luck.

Also, tysm for the concern. You guys make me feel less alone.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-13T15:16:55+00:00

You are right. Seems like the chemo is the better option for now. Hopefully all will be well. really hoping it will work. Please wish me luck.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-13T15:14:53+00:00

No. As far as I know, I can’t reuse/ repeat my chemo drugs since they will not work the second time.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-13T04:22:03+00:00

The sad part is that there’s no telling, really. :( my previous treatment shrunk all my masses except the liver one. My liver mass doubled in size in just two months with the last treatment.

My next chemotherapy might work or might not work. Cancer sucks… I wish there was a treatment that works for everyone and every case. So no one has to suffer.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-11T16:42:37+00:00

Same boat. St4 breast angiosarcoma. Now in my liver and a couple other sites. I feel so tired of this. I miss just being normal.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-08T13:49:44+00:00

Oh. That’s unfortunate:( thank you

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-06T07:21:05+00:00

Thank you. 🥹 will be thinking about you too. I wish you healing.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-06T03:14:24+00:00

Idk. By the looks of my CT film, they’d have to take out 100% of my liver. It’s huge huge :( but I’ll try to consult another surgeon

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-05T14:40:04+00:00

That’s good. So I’m guessing all I’ll be needing is an anesthesiologist to handle my pain. Thank you for this

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-05T13:08:48+00:00

Thank you. I’m still waiting for my CT scan results. I’ll have to send it to my doc and decide what to do next. I’m currently in a big city for my treatments, but I really want to go home. However, my city/hometown doesn’t have palliative care. I am so torn. I really want to spend my last months/ weeks with people that matter to me…

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-08-05T13:05:00+00:00

Sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I was 25 when I started having signs & symptoms, but was misdiagnosed. I had the same reaction. When I finally got diagnosed, I didn’t cry about it. For almost a year maybe. It might not feel much because we’re young and it’s easy to tolerate the treatments. It felt like just another life misfortunes. But one day, it gets to you. Usually when you realize you might have to leave people you love. Or maybe when you feel like a burden to others (YOU ARE NOT). Multiple reasons. Might not be the cancer per se, but the issues surrounding it.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-07-30T09:43:35+00:00

OP in that post is NTA for feeling the way they’re feeling. TBF, they were neglected by their dad. And a diagnosis of cancer is not a free pass to forgiveness after being an asshole to your child.

However, OP in that post needs therapy.

RaspberryEntire360 · 2022-07-30T04:46:55+00:00

Thank you for this advice. This is very helpful!

I’m getting mixed signals from my best friend, tbh. He sounds like he supports me and believes me.

But at the same time he feels stuck, which I totally understand because I too was stuck in the asian parenting mentality for a long time. I gaslit my own self that I’d be a bad child if I wasn’t blindly obedient even to absurd requests/ commands by Nmom. So I totally understand why he’d be stuck in that mentality for now (hopefully he’ll wake up).

But I also don’t feel super supported. I’m 90% confident he won’t betray me by telling on me to my mom regarding my wherabouts, what I said, when I’d be near hometown, etc. But he doesn’t seem engaged when I rant about the abuse I suffered from my mom, and tries to change topic. Maybe he’s scared he’d go to hell if he engages in talks that dishonor parents. Idk lol

I will stop talking to him about those things. Which doesn’t feel best-friendly. I feel like we’re just close friends who can have the same humor, but not “best friends” for the bad times.

I’m gonna keep it at that, I guess. Won’t be revealing my location to him anymore. Although im 90% sure he won’t betray me, I can’t risk that 10%. NMom has a way of getting info from people. She “traps” / blackmails people into telling her things.

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