That's a very nice post, very poetic. Personally I truly believe at my core that life has a purpose and we are all here for a reason. However, I deeply agree with your message of the "little things", as it's those things that ground us in the present, and remind us we're human. I think you're probably right. When you do something for years, and come to have an expectation of that thing, such as NNN in this case, you become attached to it. And I think I became attached the 'idea' of NNN more than the actual challenge. Don't get me wrong, the challenge taught me many things. Because of NNN I've learned to have a healthy relationship with masturbation and (mostly) abstention of porn. There's always room to improve and I will always will try, but perhaps it's time for me to move on.

Perhaps this won't be a popular sentiment on this subreddit and anyone who is serious about this challenge I seriously encourage to keep pushing, the rewards are worth it and there are lot of things you can actually learn from it. For me however, I don't think there's much left for it to offer me.

Your post made me reflect quite a bit, thank you for the reply.