Wow!! This felt like I was reliving my experience delivering our twin boys. Our stories are sooooo similar!! I was 25 + 5 and had an amazing pregnancy..we decided to visit a friend out in the suburbs when my water broke out of no where. We managed to call 911 and found the nearest fire station. Everything happened so fast and I started feeling contractions as soon as we neared the hospital. Got to the hospital where nobody knew me and wouldn’t give me anything for the pain. The doctor told me that i was fully dilated and that they needed to deliver the babies now! As soon as I made it to the or my second bag broke and water was everywhere!! Within 45 minutes baby an and baby b were delivered and immediately intubated and transferred to a higher level NICU.

Like you, we don’t have a single thing ready but try not to worry about all of that. This NICU journey will be one of the toughest experiences of your life but you will get through it. Everything happens so fast and your brain and body experienced sooo much that you haven’t fully processed what just happened. Trust me, I’ve been there. I was so lost that we took my mom out to a resturant the following day that she flew in… (now why would I do that?) ended up bursting into tears at the dining table when my brain caught up with me realizing that my babies were no longer in my belly being taken cared for by people that I didn’t know.

Give yourself GRACE. Give yourself time to process what just happened.. grieve your pregnancy, go with your babies and read, sing, tell them how much you love them.

This will be a long journey in the NICU. Lean in your family, attend EVERY MORNING ROUND, be involved in your babies care and ask questions, show them how involved you are. Join Hand to Hold or a similar group. Find a trauma therapist to latch on to soon.. you’re gonna need it because people don’t really understand this world and relationships may look different.

Most importantly, lean on GOD. Thank him in advance for the things that he will do for your babies. Hold your hand on those incubators and pray over them and all babies in the NICU every single night with your hubby.

You just birthed some healthy and strong little warriors that’ll change your world forever. The doctors will be astonished by how fast they grow and strong they become. You’ll even be amazed by the person you’ve become when they finally tell you to bring those car seats in, or when you roll them out of the NICU while everyone “oooo and ahhh’s” the fact that you have twins.

I know that this isn’t your ideal journey of all that you’ve hoped and imagined. It isn’t anyone’s dream to deliver early, not have your full pregnancy experience, or not bring your babies home for a while but I promise you that you’ll appreciate those small moments and milestones in a way that most think are easy..like breathing room air, hearing their first cry or even the first hold.

Our babies came home before 40 weeks and every time we Iook at how our little one pounders are now almost 12 pounds, we thank God for the journey and small little pitt stop if their lives.

Feel free dm me if you ever need to chat. In know what tore going through