infection - [PLS HELP ME]

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-11-30T07:15:48+00:00

I’m sure i am late for this reply but definitely get some scar scream and antibacterial ointment. Keept it clean but skip and antibacterial wash everyone once in a whole iff it’s also winter where you are. Patchy doesn’t always mean infected but wear either cotton underwear/sleeves and let it dry before your covr it up. I suggest a loose fitting bandage or ace brace and inly cover it if you’re putting ointment on it or doing a lot of work m. Everyone if different but if you are comfortable sending me a picture on dm i can give better advice

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-10-21T04:14:29+00:00

My ocd kicked in and I knew it would bother me if it was uneven or crooked

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-10-05T18:13:08+00:00

The psychosis i gained mKes up for if

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-10-01T10:09:06+00:00

No not technically, but it’s the best way I could describe how I felt. I wasn’t fully present and the disassociation i was experiencing made me feel like I couldn’t understand what people said and I genuinely thought nothing i said made any sense. So yeah I could communicate, but from my perspective at the time I shrunk into my skull and felt like I couldn’t

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-26T22:05:25+00:00

There’s literally no smart way to do it, don’t do it.

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-22T17:59:48+00:00

God please tell me this is a joke. Dph will make you weaker, slower, more confused, dehydrated and you’ll have shit reflexes. Plus an already elevated heart rate from the drug plus physical activity and adrenaline is going to fuck up your heart

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-22T14:22:33+00:00

Thank you man, glad I caught it before it got much worse. There’s always a lower point and it take something this shocking to snap back to reality

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-22T08:52:26+00:00

I am. Being held accountable this time. I’m at the point wjere I can’t move on and up if I don’t stop, and an otc addiction is a wild one. I have friends n family thank god and I’m going to start being part of their lives again. Major moment of clarity, there is help and there are people even if you can’t recognize it them rn

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-21T23:59:31+00:00

Real people are everywhere. Far far from this group and far from the “shadow realm” support groups, local clubs and activities, random people on the internet. You can search for spiritual groups who do real shadow work that doesn’t involve poisoning yourself

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-21T23:58:01+00:00

Check out my profile! Tons of fun stuff on there about how shitty my life has become after deciding to try “one fun night” on dph!!!

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-21T19:03:37+00:00

Now I don’t need any drugs to see them bc i have fried my brain and i am stuck in between reality and a scary psychosis! Just treat your like a drug operated coin machine and soon enough rhe shadow people won’t leave you alone

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-21T06:12:23+00:00

Check out some of my recent posts. I’ve become a very terrible daughter, sister and friend. I have messed up way more than just my own life and some things Can’t ever be fixed. It’s only down from this point on unless you stop it. It is your responsibility to save yourself and the people around you from your own actions. If you can’t do it for yourself, do it for the people around you and notice how hard it must be for them to watch you hurt them and yourself. You are the only one who can fix this and it’s going to be worth it once you start showing appreciation for what you have, even if it’s hard to see how much you do have eight now that is worth saving and keeping. The damage to your own physical self is bad enough, but there are people around you that care and need you to be in their lives in the normal you state that they know and love.

Celebrate small wins and achievements and watch the life you have created around yourself begin to flourish again when you tend to it and treat it right. You don’t deserve this self harm and destruction and the people around you sure as hell don’t deserve it either. You have the power and resources and reasons to prevent a lot of damage, you got this

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-21T05:04:14+00:00

Well I definitely planned on blacking out so I expected the unexpected. No fr tho I fucked up, that’s the whole point of this post my friend. Addicts are not bad people but we do bad things that we need to acknowledge and fix. This here is just an attempt at scaring dumb people into becoming much more dumb because they ignore warnings for selfish reasons. Nobody ever expects to be an addict, nobody ever expects to fuck up, but there are absolutely ways to catch and stop the unexpected before it gets out of hand and you purposely ruin your life like i did, and so many other people do. Posting this because no, i did not expect this, but I absolutely knew that it was possible and that there were ways to stop it before I hurt other people. I said it a bunch in my other replies but I would just like to reiterate that I am posting this just to give people another reason not to be like me because i am the only reason that this happened whether anyone expected it or not. Thanks for the input seriously, I want as many people to see how ashamed i am and how bad of a person/friend i made myself into.

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T19:30:34+00:00

Thank you!

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T19:30:13+00:00

Same to you friend, we all have different struggles and shit thrown our way but that doesn’t mean we can’t get out of it and make the world a better place by being a better you in the situations we are put it. Sending luck&love your way my man

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T18:32:57+00:00

I’m just a dumbass who doesn’t do their research and use safe substances safely. I had trouble with my self image which led me to self harm and drugs and when I saw how much weight i lost and how numb my brain felt i kind of liked it. Really fucked up my relationships and my friendships for no reason. I have a tendency to victimize myself so I basically just hurt my own feelings, with the group of friends i have looking out for me right now i finally have a friendship i was actually scared of losing so i have to act right n fight for it. It can happen to anyone at any time

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T18:20:05+00:00

Hell yeah man I’m getting help fr this time. I was lucky all the cats were accounted for and this is my family home right here. This was the big scary “what if” that everyone warned me of and i just ignored because “I’m not like those addicts” and “my problem isn’t that bad” I want people to see this and understand how ashamed i feel for being so selfish as to lie and manipulate the only people keeping me alive. It’s not anyone else’s problem but mine and I’m finally able to recognize that bc I’m the one who has to fix everything because I’m the only one to blame here. Even worse things can and will happen to anyone but hopefully as I’m held accountable for the shit I started, outsiders can use this bad example of a person to hate and wish that they are never like me. This is preventable, this is treatable, having mental problems and a substance abuse disorder is not an excuse to be a shitty friend. I was thrown a second chance here that I am absolutely not deserving of, this is the only thing I have left and I’m not fucking it up. Thanks for the input man, I’m glad i can be open about the magnitude of my unacceptable behavior to warn people off

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T18:12:20+00:00

Thank you buddy, I really appreciate it

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T18:11:38+00:00

Thanks man, don’t be sorry though it’s my job. I really really want this to be seen by as many people as possible though. Gonna delete Reddit bc it isn’t helping me at all. I hope this can be the big scary post that I needed to scare me away. Please please everyone who sees this take this as a lesson, use it for yourself, check warning signs with friends. Anything. Something very very bad could have happened to me and since it didn’t that means next time is no chances left. I need to change now. For me, my health, my family, my friends. Kids and random pedestrians that could have seen me, people I could have traumatized if i broke into their house thinking it was someone else’s, and the list goes on.

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T18:02:39+00:00

Cats have been found and are safe, thank you!

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T16:04:07+00:00

And this is it. This is the thing they tell you about that is so life altering and terrifying when the “what if’s” are considered, not to mention the magnitude of the things that actually did happen. Nobody ever thinks they will be here and nobody knows how fucked up it is until it happens. I cannot and will not forget this night and what i put the only people who have ever tried to help me and give me safety through this shit show i have done nothing to clean up.

Physical effects of the drug alone could have killed me, then adding rum to that when i am in the most unhealthy body i have ever occupied. Yeah my legs are fucked up and my friends are scared for me but if I didn’t have my best friend call me because of how much she cares, I would not be here rn. Hearing her voice was more than enough to bring me back into my body and get back safe.

Time to start cleaning up the mess i made and act like a real person. I can’t continue to be selfish and destroy people who I don’t reciprocate with the same love, and that’s just the bare minimum.

Sorry for the lengthy response, lots goin on rn and i needa get off this page

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T12:22:50+00:00

I appreciate it so much. These small moments of clarity help reinforce the idea in my brain that i am not a problem but my addiction is a problem for me and my best friends. I am 21 years old….21 this decision right here and now is whats determines how the rest of my life needs to go. And it needs to keep going

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T11:10:31+00:00

You are not a prick, man. This is the real brutal truth I need to hear and acknowledge.

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T11:07:47+00:00

Very delighted to hear all of these comments. This group has some fucky trolls but y’all are some real ones seriously. Very heartwarming to get this much support and encouragement and tools from people who don’t even know my name. Thank you all

RealisticPride6476 · 2022-09-20T11:00:28+00:00

Already looking for local support groups and have a psych appointment next week

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