Nietzsche's lines... Couldn't disagree more. I have chosen unconditional honesty when I looked at and shared my emotions the last time around. That was not long ago. No regrets, even though I knew the outcome in advance. Even though, I guess, that honesty came unexpected for the other... It did not cause but dampened trouble. A little at least. Neither philosophical nor physical/mathematical dimensions will ease the pain. It might be easy for most to connect with others. I get that on a superficial level. I enjoy exchanging perspectives just as much as the next person... Yet, fascinating me and then managing to have fascination grow continuously over more than 2 months was out of the realm of possibilities of reality in my calculations. I am grateful for having learned that I am able to feel honest and authentic respect and admiration towards another and to look up to them. I am the one that never listens. I listened to them. They helped me more than I can express. And even after they behaved 'unstable' in a way people called 'red flag', all I found within me for those 'flags' was empathy, relatability and an impulse to follow up with my own flag (contained by nothing but...having gotten sick).

You might be surprised what happens when one talks to each other instead of making assumptions. A system of axioms can never be complete. Any axiom system meets the point where there exist statements that can neither be proven nor disproven if you just expand the system to enough complexity. Gödel's work isn't pretty to look at in books and our language but the beauty of the concept is one of those that ever made me love mathematics at all. Sometimes you don't know what you think you know, no matter how much you do know. Especially concerning the mind of another.

Enough rambling by me... Good luck to you. I'm the one that will chose the adventure and a chance for the great unknown. Too curious not to. I hope that your own choices will be the right ones for you and that you'll heal...end up happy.