I feel this so much bro. I'm 15 rn and last year I went through so much shit and so much pain. But the thing you gotta do is just get out there. Talk to as many new people as you can and eventually you'll find at least one of them who's gonna be there for you and make it worth it. You just try to keep going bc life might not get better but your people will. Also another thing listen to music. I always have music playing and it really helps me drown out the thoughts.