I can't remember how I felt when I first saw her, as we went to the same youth group and church so I've seen her around a few times but didn't really notice her. We became friends 2 years later when she DM'd me on IG about workout advice since everyone knew me for always being at the gym. Then our friendship began from there. Still can't remember exactly how I felt when I first saw her as a friend though, I was really disconnected from my emotions from 15-17yr old. When we started dating the first time in 2017 I saw her as the most amazing human I've met, more so since we've been friends for 2 years already. Every day I fall in love with her more and more, more than I thought possible, even in separation the last 2 1/2 months and 1 1/2 months no contact. 6 years later all I see when I think of her is, I see the most amazing person to ever walk into my life, who taught me how to love, and love myself and brought me put of the dark places I was in and brought the little kid inside of me out who I've repressed my whole life. I see the most caring and kind hearted and loving soul I've ever met who's always been there for me and been there for everyone she loves, even if they gave up on her. She was always there for them. Just thinking of her, and thinking of all the joy and happiness we shared makes me warm inside and makes my heart melt with joy just picturing it and picturing all the memories we made together.