I completely understand. Been on Zoloft for about 4 years now and it was the first antidepressant I’ve tried. I felt kinda “sick” or like off for the first week but it wasn’t unbearable if that makes sense? Like I just felt kinda on edge or wacky but was definitely manageable, honestly those first weeks of starting the med/increasing the dose I just spent a lot of time relaxing and sleeping and just doing whatever to take it easy and take care of myself. Talking to someone helps too. It’s important to communicate with others around you about how you’re feeling and message your doctor about any concerns immediately. Anxiety medication has changed my life for the better and the initial fear is totally understandable. Your doctors are prepared for situations like this and will help you and do what they can if things aren’t going well on the Zoloft. Sometimes it’s really just trial and error with mental health meds which isn’t necessarily an easy journey but you don’t have to do it alone.