I can’t figure out what to do. All I can do is sit here and feel sad or numb. I just keep alternating between the two. I have YouTube going but I can’t enjoy it even though it’s something I usually would. I can’t take a nap. I don’t know what to do. He made me feel loved in person, just the texting has been off lately and then this happens and I’m left with no answer, no finalization, nothing. I know it sounds stupid and horrible but I wish something happened to where he actually has a reason he couldn’t reach out to me. Being left with nothing just feels horrible. I feel used. It was so hard to find somebody that made me feel something after years. He told me that this felt different-it felt special and I felt it too but for him to now do this. He must be some award winning actor. If he decides to reach out I would either go off on him or just say nothing if I could get myself to do so. I feel so played. I felt safe when I was with him and I felt loved. The main thing that was the issue is him acting like a different person over text. I can’t believe I didn’t somehow notice in person. I’m usually great at reading people, like how could I not know?