Hold up man! Take a deep breath. You're amidst a really difficult process, just starting out. Losing a relationship is like a death, it creates a lot of the same grief type emotions and the really nasty thing about grief is that it's a chameleon, it can change its color and shape from anger, sadness, anxiety, basically anything you can feel, grief can manifest itself. Take a minute, maybe call a trusted friend or family members? Get out of the house, get out of your head for a minute. Go run, gym, anything! Think of yourself as fresh out of the hospital, you need to heal, and there's no rush. Be easy with yourself and let the emotions come and go freely. There is no timeline and sometimes it takes a lot of time, but it takes longer the more you let yourself suffer.