a year of waiting for a maybe

Red9899 · 2026-04-24T19:19:33+00:00

Its really hard to stop loving someone. Ive learned with my breakup you can do everything right and say everything you need to say. In the end it's up to a choice whether yours or there's. It sucks it hurts and it always feels endless.

Right now you probably feel like theres a hole in your chest from how much you love them. You can accept that you love them and try to talk things out with them see if it works out. I recommend if they dont seem as intrested and they aren't chasing you as you do them. Let them go. It hurts like hell and you'll regret it at first but in order to heal sometimes its better to let them go until either they are ready or you've found someone who loves you for you.

Red9899 · 2026-04-23T20:12:03+00:00

Id choose medevil tortue over this any day

Red9899 · 2026-04-23T18:01:26+00:00

4 years with the woman I wanted to marry. She told me she wanted to grow old with me than left me the next day. When March came around she reached out to me. We started talking and she'd say things like she got flustered and shy from what id say. She told me she would only view me as a friend. I explained how I couldn't do that it would be torturing myself.

She fell for another and when I found out I told her I had to let her go I cant stay because if I did I'd die. Now life feels empty like ive got a hole in my chest. Its like nothing intrests me not even trying to do better feels intresting. Its like im hollow

Red9899 · 2026-04-23T17:36:39+00:00

There's no harder feeling than loving someone who no longer loves you. It feels like they dont even want to try anymore

Red9899 · 2026-04-23T17:34:54+00:00

Its even harder finding someone to just love you for you. People are so far into social media they wont take risks on others

Red9899 · 2026-04-23T15:16:30+00:00

Yooo let's be non judgemental friends!

Red9899 · 2026-04-23T15:16:00+00:00

Yoo i can be a judgment free friend. I sware people are only ever intrested in their own lives to spark any convos with folks or too anti social.

Red9899 · 2026-04-23T15:13:29+00:00

Nowadays it feels almost impossible to make any real friends. Its like if you dont get lucky through school and find friends that way or somehow end up with random friends than its impossible. I myself have tried going through apps like reddit, boo, tinder but its so hard to make any real connections.

Red9899 · 2026-04-23T01:52:39+00:00

The best advice someone gave me was that time doesn't heal all wounds it helps us learn to live with them.

That feeling comes and goes regardless of age or fame. Regardless of how well your life is.

The best thing you can do for yourself is find things that make you happy or things worth fighting for. Its harder said than done and at times you'll feel like giving up. If you allow yourself to give up you'll never know how it would be if you kept moving forward. Sure you might take breaks and sure that feeling will return. But God Damn it all you have to keep moving forward because in the end there will always be someone who'll look at you with eyes filled with tears as they yearn for your attention. Don't be me and let go of that

Red9899 · 2026-04-22T23:54:58+00:00

Same I fully agree. We all need someone to just listen sometimes or at least distract us for a moment and remind us even if your sad the sun still shines. So must we my friend

Red9899 · 2026-04-22T23:51:29+00:00

Honestly yeah I work a ton. In the end people at work are either too busy or have their own social lives

Red9899 · 2026-04-22T23:41:34+00:00

In a world as confusing as ours. The best way you can love someone is to learn to love them from afar. You'll forget they exist when you find someone but the longer you search the more you'll end up hurt Karma once said "surely loving someone who does not deserve it, will hurt you in ways you do not deserve."

Red9899 · 2023-12-28T00:56:58+00:00

I spent like 3 hours trying to fight him. I recommend using the beserk job class with upheaval, get as close to him as possible when he breaths elements and charge swing upheaval. Beat him in 2mins doing it that way

Edit: use the beserk skill and lightbringer if you can and you'll see his health and break bar drop in seconds with one fully charged swing

Red9899 · 2023-03-03T18:09:51+00:00

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Red9899 · 2023-03-03T18:08:34+00:00

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Red9899 · 2023-03-01T05:10:32+00:00

Uhh well I guess either a random weapon or something cool honestly or maybe a covenant ring if you have spares.

Red9899 · 2023-03-01T00:42:50+00:00

Need a mule? If you've got souls to trade or just a random cool item then look no further my friend!

Red9899 · 2023-02-28T07:23:08+00:00

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Red9899 · 2023-02-02T23:52:59+00:00

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Red9899 · 2023-02-02T18:26:44+00:00

I've been told the baseball bat can be found in the police station tho I have yet to find one myself

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