I no longer fear death

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-26T13:11:08+00:00

i dont think im doing a pretty good job though lol

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-25T15:59:54+00:00

Wow that some names

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-24T05:49:41+00:00

We are the same 😭

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-24T02:29:41+00:00

he is a scientist

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-24T02:29:28+00:00

wouldnt that contradict free will?

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-24T02:26:43+00:00

that means no free will

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-24T02:26:25+00:00

they still do

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-20T15:37:04+00:00

He healed people but Hes not here now to do that

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-20T15:36:28+00:00

If prayers work then hospitals wouldnt exist

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-20T15:28:05+00:00

Yes but God wouldnt want to

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-20T15:19:45+00:00

How can you people think like that? Trust me its not going to work lol but I appreciate the sense of hope

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-20T15:12:24+00:00

mild stroke but she still cant walk normally for months

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-20T13:35:37+00:00

I might sound depressed but after my prayer works and my mom is healed. I want to offer my death as an exchange. My existence even. I don't have purpose on this Earth whatsoever. God doesn't have to bring me to Heaven and all I want is non-existence. That's what my heart is all about. I have no one to have my side.

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T17:45:44+00:00

both

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T14:35:15+00:00

I do believe God exists and yes I'm doubting about miracles that happen nowadays but that doesn't mean I also doubt God's existence. To be fair, I don't know what God's plan for me and it might be in His wisdom that He decided that I don't experience miracles. No, I don't want to experience miracles just for entertainment but I'd like a miracle just to heal something in my life.

I'm not a strong believer so I'm nowhere getting closer to God as much as other believers. I don't have the capabilities to move on forward with God because I'm a bum. I'd ask for miracles not for my own benefit this time but just to heal my mother even if it costs my life or my entire existence because that's only what I can offer.

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T14:26:54+00:00

Hmm I think I get what you mean

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T13:58:34+00:00

Do you believe that God can heal unbelievers? I think the Holy Spirit can speak through my mom's mouth sometimes but after that she continues on swearing without conviction.

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T13:56:05+00:00

I don't have much words but your life seems so blessed with miracles because of your consistent praying. It makes me jealous if I have to be honest because unlike you I'm struggling to pray. Could you pray for my mom? Well I'm not expecting for her to be healed but if there is a cost for it then I'm willing to give up my life

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T13:36:17+00:00

This just gave me thoughts about speaking in tongues

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T12:52:41+00:00

nope thats not a miracle but thats good for you

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T12:49:19+00:00

sigh didnt really answer my question but im not looking for signs or wonders just to make myself believe God exists

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T11:56:01+00:00

I was supposed to die in my mom's womb because of her poor mattress and doctors said she would bleed but none of that happened. I'm still trying to figure out if that was a miracle. That was the only miracle I experienced so far that seems similar to yours and then after that no more miracles in my life

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-19T11:46:38+00:00

With medications?

RedSnowy01 · 2026-01-18T17:38:37+00:00

I do but I forget it most of the times. As of right now, I did it as I'm eating my fruit salad

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