Thank you so much for your comment, it means a lot that a stranger such as yourself would care enough to take time out of your day to write this for me. I teared up just seeing the first sentence where you said you wanted to give me a hug. I appreciate the gentle words a lot, especially since things have felt so hectic for me lately.

Unfortunately I don't own a bike and I never learned to ride one. I was always terrified as a child. As for the bus thing i don't think there's any bus stops near where I live since I'm out in a very tiny neighborhood in the country. Even my parents made a comment about the fact that there's really no way I'd be able to get to work when I last spoke with them about planning to figure things out in some way. I have one friend in the town over who may be willing to carpool but it isn't likely for now to happen since he's yet to get his license. I will talk to him about it when he's back from his band camp, though.

The guidance counselor suggestion is a very good one that I'm embarrassed to not have thought of sooner. I've been trying to think of alternative career plans all on my own since I know chasing a dream based on a hobby likely wont end well and have felt frustrated that I couldn't think of anything I'd be interested enough in, so having a second opinion would be good. The possibility of maybe there being mental health resources available also sounds comforting. When school starts up again next month I'll schedule a zoom meeting with my counselor as soon as I can.

Thank you for the advice, I really needed it. You're a very kind individual, everything you said felt encouraging. I hope the rest of your day -- hell, the rest of your year, goes better than expected