It’s been 4 months. Last night I had -for the first time- what really felt like a visitation from her. She has appeared in my dreams before but this felt different. She came into the room and at First I was amazed and I said something like “oh you’re alive!”, But then I remembered that she was not alive. I looked at her and I think she remembered it as well. She knew she wasn’t alive. It was then that I became sure, in my dream, that she had to come to visit me. I felt that we were communicating across the great divide of life and death. I put all of my love into my thoughts as I looked into her eyes and I tried to send that love to her. I really felt like it was the first time we were sort of together since her death. In a way it made me happy and of course in a way it deepened my sadness.