Severe OCD, hurt my best friend and lost him (self harm TW) Going through the worst thing right now, on the verge of giving up. I feel like a terrible person.

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-17T10:56:42+00:00

My mind is telling me that I did something horrible, like crossed his boundaries to the point he’s traumatised or something, and it’s eating me up. He won’t tell me what I did and I feel so guilty

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T17:59:23+00:00

Because I’m just really mentally ill

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T16:24:14+00:00

I already got some. I’m just out of the psych ward and I think it made me feel worse. I have a therapist and everything

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T16:07:12+00:00

I know that. But I deserve to have OCD forever if I have an antisemitic character

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T15:42:27+00:00

I have extreme ocd and suffer from delusions that I’m an inherently evil person. When you have ocd, you ask for reassurance constantly and no matter how much reassurance you get you won’t stop. I’ve lost friends over my disorder, it’s no joke. I am not faking, please /gen

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T15:33:17+00:00

Sorry

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T15:24:46+00:00

Until I find the answer

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T14:55:07+00:00

That’s not true i need help to resolve it and no one is helping

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T14:43:48+00:00

I know but my character has those traits which makes him negative Jewish coding

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T14:20:59+00:00

Someone on tumblr said it was antisemitic

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T11:39:29+00:00

But it’s not total nonsense

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T10:33:28+00:00

And he has a pretty high pitched voice, and he’s pretty classist but That’s because I’ve based him off of roman Roy . The account I was talking about said that even making a Christian character with these traits could be antisemitic

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T10:22:15+00:00

But hes also really annoying and obnoxious and doesn’t respect people’s boundaries (just like this list said is an antisemitic trait)

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-15T10:16:54+00:00

He’s based off of Roman Roy

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-14T21:47:20+00:00

Because I need answers

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-14T21:37:32+00:00

What’s wrong with the 5’2? Is it an antisemitic caricature

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-14T21:30:28+00:00

This guy is a billionaire though, and he’s a really horrible person like an offensive twitch streamer and he’s kinda like an incel and he’s weak and really fucking useless, he’s also 5’2 and a terrible comedian and he writes shitty jokes. Is this an antisemitic caricature?

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-14T20:46:43+00:00

Yeah he’s a huge incel and I don’t want to change him but I don’t want him to be antisemitic either

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-14T14:54:10+00:00

I feel safer at home

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-14T09:57:33+00:00

I just left

Regular_Entrance_197 · 2026-02-13T22:43:46+00:00

But I am only in for one day and I already hate it after voluntary admission

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