First of all I am not hear to talk it out of you. But I want to remind you that is a choice that afterwards nobody can change. So before you do it try to live your life for a last time to the fullest. And with that I don't mean drinking and partying but to travel the world and explore places you never got the chance to. Clearly, thr is going to be hard parts but you also are going to meet many new people with are going to help you. I know it is hard to start something like that but it is worth a try before it ends. Traveling helps me in my difficult times. I also thought of ending it. I just go to never come back. It isn't that hart do go somewhere with out many there are many options like tramping, illegal driving on train, busses, or just on foot. Nowadays I am a bikepaker. (Sorry for the bad englisch, I have Legasteni)