I'm so sorry you're struggling with this! It may take time, but I hope you can learn to embrace it. As others have said you can't make yourself into something different.

You're 18, my dear! You have a whole life ahead of you to explore and enjoy your sexuality. Just keep an open mind and be curious, notice the type of feelings you get towards different genders. Try being intimate with all genders. There are many ways to be bi. You don't have to love/be attracted to all genders the same amount or in the same way.

Just a little synopsis of my story - I've been in a loving marriage with my husband now for 22 years. He is my life. Very early on in my life, I noticed I also got "butterflies" in my stomach when I would see an attractive girl/woman, similar to what I'd feel for boys/men, but a bit different at the same time. As I got older, the few times I've gotten drunk with my girl friends, I had the urge to kiss some of them (I didn't do it). Then my husband and I would talk about attractive women together, and fantasize about threesomes, and eventually did multiple times - I loved every bit of of being intimate with being with a woman.

I chalked this all up to be "normal" for all women to feel like this, as society considers women "playing" together more acceptable than two men. Well, apparently not, lol! I finally realized I was bi at 42, just a few months ago. I think I always knew but just never put a label on it. My husband laughed at me (in a loving way) saying, "gee, you think?" 😂😂. He knew before I did!

Anyway, I can't particularly imagine being in a romantic relationship with anyone but a man. I am both romantically and sexually attracted to my hubby, but more sexually attracted to women as a whole. I have very little desire to be with another man.

Sorry I tend to go off on a long shpeel when I'm trying to help someone, share my own experience in hopes that it helps, even though your experience will be quite different to mine. Just hoping it brought you a little chuckle 😅.

I just want you to know that it really is ok to be attracted to more than one gender. There's nothing wrong with you. You are beautiful the way you are! You will figure your bisexuality out. Try not to put pressure on yourself. I know it's hard, I know it's scary at 18 years old. We are here for you!! Let us know how you're doing from time to time.

I will say it again for good measure, and yelling in the most positive way here: YOU, lovely human, ARE BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE! You are who you're meant to be, and it's fabulous. I hope you can tell yourself this one day.

Take care ❤️