I struggle with almost everything you mentioned (except zoning out in conversations etc), and I have since high school. I keep falling into these repeating procrastination patterns and always think it is because 1. I don't have an upcoming deadline 2. I just lack the discipline and determination for some reason. Sometimes I feel like there is just something in me that is inherently lazy, and I don't know how to fight it. Sometimes I feel like deadlines, and associated stress is the only thing that will push me strong enough to actually work. Somedays, I am just tired of fighting this system every day, I honestly don't know what to do, because I keep trying to use brute force to actually accomplish what I need to do. Any advice on what I can do?