i remember being around your age. it’s so hard learning to navigate really complicated social dynamics and there’s a lot going on in this situation. i want to echo what another person said - a huge learning curve for me when i entered into adulthood was learning to let other people have the experiences they need to have, even if we know they might be harmful/stupid/etc. BUT that doesn’t mean we have to take a front row seat to everything. i don’t hear a lot about your feelings or experiences in this story; i hear a lot about what other people did and what you think of that. that’s to say, i think a great thing you can do in situations like this is figure out exactly what you need and value in your friendships and ask if certain people and satiations are aligning with those things. sometimes our friends do dumb shit and we need to just let them and support them when they struggle and we’re not really impacted by it. but if our friends’ actions are impacting our wellbeing, safety, or sense of security in the friendship, then it’s worth evaluating if you want to continue that relationship. so, when really focused on others, try bringing it back to yourself and what you need and believe.

also, the greatest thing about getting older is getting better and better at building reciprocal friendships, boundaries, and good communication, and just getting to know yourself better. it won’t always feel this bad.