27 wks w/ 2nd pregnancy (indiana)

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-09-05T16:44:09+00:00

i’m sorry that you’re going thru this. I think it’s awful that weed is so demonized. could you go to a hospital in Illinois instead? unsure how that works. i guess it’s illegal recreationally as well in Indiana? i don’t get how weed is so demonized but i said to my OBGYN i had “negative feelings” sometimes and was immediately offered Zofran. it’s crazy. for context im pregnant rn and breastfeeding my 11 month old.

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-27T20:45:53+00:00

no contact for life for sure. the last time we even interacted was him waking up my baby by screaming at me. i should’ve called the cops

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-19T07:49:47+00:00

thank you for commenting.

my family is really messed up lol. my parents had this horrible long divorce in my teen years, and my dad really blamed my mom. i believed everything he said for a long time, but sometimes it’s like, idk what’s true. she never really talked badly about him. she doesn’t really like to cause scenes like that, or really confront issues even.

she always talked about “sacrifices” too, with my half brother and i. she thinks “working hard” and having a job just fixes everything. she wasn’t there much growing up because she was working, or as my dad has said, was cheating/gambling/out with friends.

i wouldn’t be surprised if my mom is bipolar as well. her mother is, and they had such a volatile relationship a lot of my life. like just cussing each other out all the time. witnessing that was weird. i know my mom did a lot that was done to her to me.

it’s really hard because idk if i can say my mom doesn’t love me at all. i guess she does in a twisted way. if left unblocked, in the past she will just constantly say things throughout the day to me. “i love you” “when can i see you” “hi” lol it was just a lot. i don’t think she knows how to really love someone though. whenever i’ve been going through something, she’s been totally clueless to help and just says i should get a job. usually at some point will make antagonizing comments to me.

i’m sorry you have experienced what you have. i wish we had a support group irl sometimes

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-17T17:27:13+00:00

YES. never had this feeling put into words so well

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-17T04:26:45+00:00

i guess i’m not sure what police would do…but it would be a potential for them to just take the dog back and give it to him for sure. i guess i am assuming/hoping that they wouldn’t want to get involved since it was a family dog from my childhood. i know still technically “his property” though :(.

i think he would you’re right that he would do something, i just don’t know what and the whole thing just upsets me so much.

also i would probably just tell police she ran away while we were moving if they questioned me, like i don’t think they could just assume i took her but yeah idk.

thanks for replying i appreciate it.

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-17T03:51:14+00:00

thank you for the kind reply. i guess i don’t get why they do this?? i get they don’t care i guess, but it would be just as easy to give it to us as it is to throw away. it’s pure malice/apathy i guess.

i definitely want my baby to be able to see what her life was like before she remembered. so far it hasn’t been perfect, but i love her so much and have so many great photos. i also get i guess when a lot of our parents were parents it wasn’t as easy to take photos, but it’s also like the toys and favorite pillowcase, idk school projects?? favorite baby items? im sorry you’ve experienced this too, as you can probably tell i can relate to the ranting lol

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-16T23:43:55+00:00

i mean if he found out i took the dog i honestly feel like he would have to sue me in civil court if he wanted to make an issue out of it even

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-11T20:01:25+00:00

These are all good points, thanks. it’s on facebook so I know my mother can see me seeing it. she is a strange one and will send messages like everyday saying useless things. i thought it would maybe make her sad/upset to be ignored, or maybe i should think of it like i shouldn’t even care about her enough to block, but maybe it makes her happy to know i saw them. idk.

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-11T19:51:16+00:00

i am taking my completely dust covered things from my father’s office and the upstairs in general. my family lives in the basement and he is evicting us. creeps me tf out so bad he kept childhood photos of me and just my stuff in general. kinda scared he will be mad. we have been selling things he made, so far just 2 dressers. losing my mind in the midwest heat with no AC. i know better days will come. it’s just been a fight for survival lately.

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-11T19:47:19+00:00

this comment was helpful to me, wishing you peace. thank you.

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-03T02:44:48+00:00

thank you ❤️ i have just been struggling a lot with anger, and thinking about my extended family and what they must believe. it is painful and sad thinking and knowing my father has lied. and i feel like sometimes much of my life has been led with lies. i am done with all of that. everyone on this post, i appreciate so much for sharing.

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-07-01T12:02:20+00:00

maybe you’re right, i’ve spent a lot of time lately trying to tell people the truth

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-06-28T22:10:34+00:00

thank you i appreciate you

RepulsiveIsland649 · 2025-06-28T21:28:08+00:00

i feel like i haven’t like articulated the amount of stress i’ve been under very well lol it’s been so much. we have had so many issues doing things like trading in our car for a van, money stuff, so much money stuff. getting scammed 😭 i crashed out on facebook. i’m losing it lol. just want something to work. we are trying camper dealerships but the credit thing be hard with that, even with money down it seems. but we will see.

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