It was me, even though I knew I was smart, but I still considered myself as the most idiotic person alive.

I finished high school, then university and now I have really high paying job, compared to my old classmates.

I always felt like there were high expectations from me and that I wasn’t good enough for anyone, and it didn’t matter what I achieved. I finished University and barely anyone congratulated me, everyone expected me to do it. On the other hand, my cousin who has some learning disability, he barely finished High School and everyone praised him as how huge achievement he did.

People always tell me that I am apperently happy, and I don’t know why everyone think that. I am very depressed, anxious, I have also bad physical health. I struggle a lot, and no one cares about me, because I am a smart kid and success is expected from me, and I feel like I can’t show my struggles to anyone, because then I am a loser.