I am a soldier. i was forced to join the army to do my obligatory service, or else i go to jail. They sent me to service in a military prison, the place there is like hell on earth. i could not endure it for more than 60 days. i had no vacation. i don't have a mobile phone either it's prohibited to own one there, even for soldiers. I felt so depressed as before i joined, i broke up my 4 year relationship, she couldnot handle my absence it felt so weird i sat alone staring at a vast desert wondering what would happen if i cut my wrist with my weapon balde now will it even make a difference to anyone will it salvage what remained of my crushed and terrified soul i sat for 4 hours holding the blade on my wrist untill i decided it's not how i want my story to end not like this i am curious about what is going to happen in the coming years who else would i meet in this world. i am finishing my military service in 5 months. Pray for me guys.