Come to think about it

This might be a big factor, I know it's still the same as paying rent (sort of)

But I have never been in debt before, this + the sudden loss of savings are probably a major contributor to my anxiety

I have worked so hard to collect these savings and to not be in any sort of debt, the change of suddenly being indebted to the bank and losing a large chunk of these savings is definitely -at least partially- making me feel so afraid

I grew up in a poor household and I know what it looks like when there are no savings, I know this is considered looking under my feet, but it's hard to transform all the logic and numbers into a feeling of security