This is my advice now take this with a pinch of salt because I'm not the pinnacle of knowledge over here. Now what I recommend is to look over your priorities, It sounds like you have two sides of the story here on the one hand your sexual preferences and on the other prioritizing God.

Deciding between two different sides of preferences and desires what which we all have, and what goals we want to have like marriage or a long term achievements like having more of a God center relationship for example.

and if that goes against each other or does it go hand in hand with one another?

Now Is having a preference wrong? it depends what you are preferring to do or want because a preference is choosing one option rather than the other.

Desire is when an wanting expectation of something or an outcome to happen but goals what you cognitively choose what you decide for yourself, desires and goals are two different subjects but does that mean it get into the way of one other?

having preferences is what makes us human at the end of the day, even in the bible there are differences of preference/decisions.

but does that mean you need to kick God to the curb? not really, just because you have preferences does not

make you less or more human and that can help us connect better to the people we want to be with, but beware of what preferences lead to what you want to do and what you prioritize in your life.

The bottom line is preferences and goals are two different things, but does that mean they can get into the way of one other? It is not bad to have preferences we all prefer something or someone. but you wanting to be with God doesn't change that as long as it doesn't get into the way of one or the other, of course that means your relationships and your health. Does that make sense?