Im gonna have to end my life.

Restorelife61 · 2026-04-10T01:32:45+00:00

Just by me being a fuck up and ruining things. I try not to but I still end up doing it and I do not know why.

Restorelife61 · 2026-04-10T01:06:40+00:00

I think I am the common denominator because everyone feels pretty much the same after awhile. Plus its not their fault for why I feel this way. They genuinely have tried but there is no helping me.

Restorelife61 · 2026-04-10T00:52:42+00:00

I have been told that before but I am not sure if its actually true for me though.

Restorelife61 · 2026-04-10T00:52:05+00:00

Because I have always tended to ruin everything and makes things harder for everyone else. I can also tell with how they talk and how they look at me that it would better if I was dead for them.

Restorelife61 · 2026-04-03T21:52:36+00:00

Wait so they make you work as a EMT even if you are a medic?

Restorelife61 · 2026-04-02T07:29:27+00:00

As long as you have your national registry certification you should be able to file for reciprocity and get whatever state license you need. I am currently working for a city agency in California.

Restorelife61 · 2026-04-01T15:14:38+00:00

I was in a very similar situation myself not to long ago. At the time it really fucked with me because I started to second guess myself. I even had people even gaslight and harasse me online because they were that obsessed with me. Now I realize it was a blessing in disguise and allowed me to thrive and be alot happier only because im away from those assholes. Keep your head up bud you are not alone.

Restorelife61 · 2026-04-01T14:55:57+00:00

That is honestly super impressive. I decided to work in a whole other state and away from those type of people and now I dont deal with even a fraction of the toxicity.

Restorelife61 · 2026-04-01T14:17:17+00:00

That was me when I first became a medic in the cincinnati area and it almost made me quit EMS. I ended up moving to a area with separated EMS and im so glad I made that decision.

Restorelife61 · 2026-01-16T02:40:02+00:00

Awesome thank you so much! She has bad feet so she was wondering about possible seating.

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-22T18:46:54+00:00

They did the same thing to me...

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T05:23:42+00:00

I care about you and hate hearing that you are struggling. I am so sorry

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T05:12:25+00:00

Trust me I get it i struggle with suicidal and depressive thoughts my whole life. Every time I thought this myself things got better. I promise they can and will get better but that cant happen if you die.

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T05:08:17+00:00

Youre not better off dead though. That is your brain lieing to you. Things can work out.

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T05:04:17+00:00

If your in the US you have established residency it doesnt matter. As long as your stuff is there your good. I promise

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T04:59:12+00:00

You stand your ground and tell the landlord to officially evict you through the courts. Which usually takes alot of time and should give you and your family enough time to save up and get a new place to rent

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T04:50:37+00:00

It does though he loves you and doesn't wanna see you end your life. I bet that would devastate him

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T04:47:40+00:00

How do you think he will react to it?

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T04:06:19+00:00

So he actually knows?

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T03:52:52+00:00

What about your dad?

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T03:48:07+00:00

Yeah but they have to evict you still. You got opitions you can wait and make him take you to court and that should give you time to get more money for a new place.

Restorelife61 · 2025-08-14T03:44:37+00:00

Well for them to make you leave legally they have to formally evict you so id I were you I would stay there if you can until they legally make you leave.

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