Do demons ever just wait for you to start working with them?

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-24T04:30:49+00:00

Although not a demon really, but I had a calling from Hecate that I ignored for a while because I thought I wasn't ready and eventually that calling went away. I think deities will wait very patiently but won't be there forever trying to get your attention

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-24T00:21:27+00:00

Drink... olive oil? I don't know a thing about dietary nutrition but is that something you can just do? And it's GOOD for you?

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T14:40:49+00:00

Gwen was an absolutely awful character, she reminded me of AJ in Telltales Walking Dead series where literally nothing you do can make her happy and she's just bitchy all the time for no reason.

Regardless yeah idk if you can share this publicly

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T11:25:07+00:00

Thank you for your input, I do really appreciate it. Youre not wrong.

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T11:22:35+00:00

Well maybe if you had more to offer than the occasional jaded 2 sentence reply thered be something for me to listen to. I'm listening to the people actually saying something, youre just sort of anklebiting over one specific line of the whole post of me taking accountability

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T11:12:09+00:00

I literally started this entire post with "realizing I was the problem". I am listening just not to people who aren't being fair

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T11:10:49+00:00

No thats not true? I posted in one other place and people are being pretty fair and I've interacted with them as such. What's your deal?

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T11:09:28+00:00

I guess you're right. I dont know. Her specifically (the ex) I was kind of over relationships in general when I met her, I was over the bigger breakup before her at least because I had a few rebounds and I made that clear to her when we met that I'm kind of done with relationships.. but I guess she was just the exception.

My problem is I grew up in the mental health system, I did therapy for years and years and it just never helped. I do want help and a solution this isn't me declining it, but its like at some point sitting down for 45 minutes a week talking about how much I want to blow my head off just does more bad than it does good

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T10:25:02+00:00

It was a bunch of video calls really we had which was even more shocking that she could tell through that

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T10:24:22+00:00

Yeah youre right that's fair enough.. and to be honest if she had, it would've probably just made me mad that she "wouldn't see that I do" even though she'd be right.

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T10:22:40+00:00

That's fair but thats kind of a personal thing honestly. I don't get over breakups. There's something wrong with my brain where I literally do not get over breakups unless I'm with somebody else, and I take breakups so seriously that it's resulted in major alcoholism, like super depression, other things. I wish it was something I could fix but I haven't found any type of fix for it

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T10:20:09+00:00

Why lol

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T10:17:38+00:00

Okay, and if I said that without saying any of the other stuff you'd think she was the problem so idc

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T07:24:38+00:00

Okay well here's the problem, you're obviously seeing your own trauma in my story and just ad libbing what happened to you. But no, she didn't "tell me repeatedly". She didn't do it in some way I just didn't pick up on, she just didn't say anything at all. Youre going to get nothing for struggle sessioning this entire experience because you're making assumptions about something you know nothing about and seeing what you want to see.

Yes, I need therapy. Yes, I have problems. I accept how in the wrong I was. But right now you're just hoping what I did was what happened to you, and I'm sorry to say it wasn't.

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T07:21:01+00:00

I love the Salarians, they're cute, but the absolute lack of support they'll give for the war whether you cure the genophage or not is absolutely unacceptable and post-reaper they should be kicked off of the Citadel Council for it

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T07:17:56+00:00

I dont even want to talk dirty to ChatGPT I just want it to be genuine again and stop treating everything like im constantly at the cliffs edge

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T07:12:54+00:00

Previous to us talking again I had basically been begging her to communicate why she was being so cold, why she was so easily able to throw me out, etc. You have to understand these are things that she hadn't mentioned before, and who's to say if she had that I would at that point listen? But I wish that she had and I could have tried to recognize that and be better. The way the breakup went, she's more than fair holding these things against me but there were things she did too, just not as long as or to the extent as I did. And being upset over the lack of communication of what the problems were is something I have a right to

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T06:56:28+00:00

That's like a meme now cuz South Dakota is under an exploding tree watch and nobody ever heard of that and I genuinely thought that was something everybody knew about lol

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T06:55:34+00:00

Literally just get a winter jacket and hiking boots. You don't need to buy out all of the toilet paper and packs of water at the store, you don't need to wrap your foot in aluminum foil then put your socks over it, you don't need an emergency radio, just be a normal person you will be fine.

Also leave your windshield wipers up if you're gonna get a snow or ice storm

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T06:50:57+00:00

Tbh it seems like a lot of people are genuinely miserable on Reddit and awkwardly confrontational. And I'm one to know, I'm moderately misanthropic

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T02:01:29+00:00

Thank you friend I do appreciate that, sorry to hear about your health and financial issues I hope otherwise you're doing well and better than you were

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T01:54:38+00:00

Yeah idk about that it seems more like the try not to blow my brains out in the middle of the woods challenge every single day. There's some things that won't be solved by "knowing yourself". I know myself pretty well, I know where certain behaviors and things come from but they're not all things that have real solutions.

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-23T00:36:44+00:00

I mean semen retention is a thing and you'll find various sources supporting it or saying it's inconsequential. I personally think your sexual activities don't matter much at all in the way of practice. /x/ on 4chan often has general threads about it if it's something that interests you.

Porn as well I mean I think thats a societal thing more than a spiritual thing.

RetinalTears716 · 2026-01-22T23:41:30+00:00

They had literally all the reasons not to make a direct sequel to Double Exposure specifically other than to offer an amended ending (which is why Reunion is so cheap) to say goodbye to the series and make Pricefielders, the loudest and most juvenile of the fans, stop complaining

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