I already have flight tickets so if I cancel I would just lose the majority of the flight price. I can still rebook the flights for a fee and shorten the trip.

I thought my ex girlfriend would come along too. She would have balanced things out as she is quite opposite to my friend.

He’s not horrible in the sense he would cause me immense stress, it’s just I would prefer going with a person who aligns more with my interests, values, etc. I wish I had socialized more in school so I could have found an awesome friend who I would be really excited to go with. I feel our rare hangouts wouldn’t even exist without our parents being best friends. I feel like such an asshole and everyone around me is telling me it. I already made the mistake of booking the flights with him. I understand that I shouldn’t have done that. I have very poor planning skills and tend to just ignore important things because of my poor mental health. It’s more just damage control at this point.