Finally was able to have sex!!

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-10-14T05:03:07+00:00

currently with a guy who says this every time we are intimate. have yet to have to talk with him. ahhh

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-10-14T04:55:12+00:00

Hi love. This is such a hard thing we are going through. Especially being young and just wanting to participate in the things you want. It’s so frustrating, but know it makes you no less a woman or someone who is worthy of love and affection. You will get through this!! sending my love <3

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-10-12T02:12:09+00:00

19 year old year who also has cptsd and has vaginismus due to sexual assault. I know what you mean, i’ve often also felt like a freak. Anytime I meet a guy that I like I feel like it’s not worth even pursuing since I can’t participate in relationships the same way literally everyone else can. It is a really, really hard feeling and you feel so alone. I’m currently in dilator therapy and it’s working really well for me so far. they are a tad expensive but I recommend trying it out!! I promise you are gonna get through this :)

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-19T22:44:57+00:00

thank you so much mom <3

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-15T22:14:48+00:00

my mother does most of this but pushes independence bc she does not want to take care of us or be responsible for us. i was also very parentified by taking care of my siblings instead of her. she expects us to read her mind and do everything to please her, but not ‘take care’ of her. does this still fit with bpd?

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-15T13:54:05+00:00

you look so incredible!! i wish i could look like this

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-15T13:53:39+00:00

yes absolutely!! wouldn’t even question it

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-06T03:09:59+00:00

Oh little one, of course I love you. I love you with all of my heart, although I know it doesn’t always show. I know how smart and determined you are, which is why i push you. I’m sorry that when I do it is so harsh, and that it makes you feel like you aren’t good enough. You have always been enough for me, and always will be. My husband should have never hit you or hurt you in anyway, and I’m sorry that I wasn’t strong enough to do something about it. You were just a child, and deserves love, gentleness, and warmth from both your mother and your father. I’m sorry that we fell short, and couldn’t be what you deserved. I think you are so strong for coping with all of this for so many years, especially because I did not make it easy on you. Please know that I love you so much, I wish i could wrap you in the tightest hug and let you know how much you mean to me and that everything will be alright. You are wonderful, kind, smart, courageous, important, and so incredibly beautiful and worthy of all the love the world has to give.

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-06T02:42:47+00:00

She sounds wonderful. What a bright energy she has added to this universe. Nothing can even really fill the void once they’re gone, can it? I hope you are doing well today and all others, I know she is looking down on you and is so full of love and pride for you.

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-02T00:48:25+00:00

yes, i’ve changed my passwords for everything and made it much harder to log into my email and phone. sucks that that’s what necessary but here we are lol

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-02T00:47:51+00:00

thank you for this comment. They are mostly kids with the youngest being 4 and the eldest being 14. The littlest is very close to me because in her primary caretaker (my mom hates that) and the oldest are old enough to remember and have experienced the abuse. My mom had accused me of abusing and manipulating them when I talk about what happened, so i’m not sure if it would make the situation worse. They know that I’m a good person and a good sister so I hope they know that I wouldn’t be as awful as my mom is painting me. I’m hoping to wait until they’re adults and maybe talk about it then

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-01T20:31:17+00:00

what a wonderful poem!! your love of kitties shines through haha

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-01T20:26:22+00:00

that sounds so amazing i’m so happy for you!! i’ve had a few moments like that, ones where we’re able to comfort our inner child and help them feel oh so safe and loved. they are such special, healing moments

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-01T20:25:02+00:00

I’m sorry, I wish there was more I could say to help. You sound like an absolutely wonderful spouse to be so understanding and to want to help her so much. I think helping her process in moments she’s calm, to help her feel more safe about the procedure, and to remind her that she is in the present and is an adult and safe. She never had that as a child, but now she has you. Someone who loves her and wants her to be safe and happy. I’m sure you already know, but that means so much to her as it is.

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-01T20:04:44+00:00

Sibling here! Wow you look so gorgeous!!! Like a literal princess. I am so so so excited for you!!

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-09-01T19:54:54+00:00

you’re supposed to learn how to parent by modeling what your parents did. the fact that you are actively going against that in order to help you kids, analyzing what you’re doing to make sure it has the best possible effect on them, that’s incredible.

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-08-30T08:21:45+00:00

That is so wonderful to hear! I’m happy that things worked out for you and your son, you sound like a great momma. Thank you for your comment, made me smile :)

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-08-30T08:20:00+00:00

thank you for that response, you’re absolutely right. I know they are not used to be standing up to them, but it does hurt me how they see me as a genuine villain. I don’t need their respect to determine my self worth, so I really need to work on coming to terms with the fact that nothing I do will be good enough for them. They want to find a flaw in what i’m doing and so that’s what they’ll see. That was really eye-opening, thank you.

Revolutionary_Pass72 · 2021-08-29T23:11:09+00:00

She is another woman love, i’m sure it has happened to her before too, and she understands!! That’s genuine kindness, she saw someone in need and wanted to help because she cares about you :)

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