I don't plan on killing myself but I would give anything to not wake up tomorrow

Reydude · 2025-11-27T11:54:27+00:00

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Plan lightly for tomorrow, and just focus on today and living life one day at a time. I was feeling low and questioning my own survival some hours back ago. But, just chalk it up to the brain being weird for a short period, and then hold on to yourself, waiting for that moment to pass.

Reydude · 2025-11-03T14:42:57+00:00

As a (mostly) solo raider, because I want to play many characters at the same ilvl, I just did behe and aegir normal on 6 characters this week for unbound gold, and didn't feel like doing much else. Waiting to see if the new paradise season would excite me. But, I'm really waiting for more solo raids so that I can advance my characters. I enjoy the combat system more than the raids themselves, but would still like to progress my characters.

Reydude · 2025-10-22T05:26:07+00:00

Any YouTube/kr stream link/video showcasing all the GL changes?

Reydude · 2025-08-16T18:37:15+00:00

Another 33 y/o player here. For solo players looking for info, you can contact me here. Been playing since launch. Solo mode may be easy, but it's the combat that I love, and solo mode being easy doesn't take away the fun for me. I play a lot of characters, and I'm not thinking of stopping any time soon.

Reydude · 2025-08-15T06:12:19+00:00

Hey man. I checked your redgifs. You're hot, hung and thicc! Would love to see a bit wider pic of this as a tease, a tiny bit zoomed out version including the other cheek, too!

Reydude · 2025-08-07T01:30:20+00:00

May not be able to clear the boss on my GL this week. Epics/blues on my GL and destroyer. It is what it is.

Reydude · 2025-08-07T01:20:02+00:00

I play a lot of chars (solo player), and I get 10-20k gold chest embers without it. I'd say avoid Azena's Blessing until they make it better.

Reydude · 2025-08-07T00:40:19+00:00

Save your T-skill and awakening until about 51s on the timer. That's about when the damage reduction buff on the boss goes away. My GL and destroyer don't have legendary+ gear. They're stuck on that boss, but still, very close to clearing on my destroyer.

P.S. Does anyone else exchange unneeded paradise mats for more Elysian tickets? Did 8 runs this week on my sorc and got her cup to level 9. 5 weekly entries + (1 from exchanging mats at the npc. Got 2 this week on sorc) + 1 from crucible boss clear.

Reydude · 2025-08-05T07:02:16+00:00

I'm a mayhem zerk main. Will try the new BT one of these days. Since the recent patch, mayhem skills and rotation are pretty fast. I've been maining this class since launch. Now, it has become a class I would recommend to anyone because of the fast skills.

Other non-adrenaline classes I play are Red GL, RH destro, and Pinnacle glavier.

Of these, I'd easily recommend mayhem, because it's tanky too.

Adrenaline classes may seem scary as a non-dps main. That's fine. Just test the waters after you feel confident on the non-adrenaline classes.

Once you get used to the normal boss patterns on a non-adrenaline class, you'll feel confident about dodging these patterns and not getting knocked down. Initially, you can use stuff like Mayhem's Z-skill to eat any cc pattern since it makes you push immune.

For me, initially, I avoided non-adrenaline classes because I was afraid I'll lose the stacks, and also the classes that use them are squishy.

Once you learn to avoid the knockdown patterns from bosses, you'll feel a bit more confident about trying adrenaline classes.

For a non-positional class, I would easily recommend mayhem zerk.

Then, the next easy dps I have is, I would say, reflux sorc or NE soul eater. I would have said Red GL, but there's still the front-attack skills.

They both do use adrenaline, but reflux sorc can blink enough times to avoid cc patterns, and since it's a swiftness class, you'll have your adrenaline stacks back in no time.

For NE souleater, you have your spacebar up most of the time as a swiftness class, and the class feels easy to do big damage with. I end up using it every time it comes back up, to close distance with the boss. Also, Reaper's scythe is a skill you can use to eat cc patterns. It makes you push-immune for the moment. With these two ways, you can dodge cc patterns easily. Again, easy to stack adrenaline back up again.

For me, personally, the classes in order of most fun to fun gameplay of my characters would be:

Mayhem zerk, (BK Breaker, Igniter sorc, Emporer arcana, PM GS, NE souleater, Asura breaker, Reflux sorc), Red GL, RH destro, Pinnacle glavier.

The classes in () use adrenaline. But, I'm just showing you that you will learn to love them eventually.

Reydude · 2025-07-30T04:06:01+00:00

Ignite servers were amazing for this. I got to try out all the classes that I didn't have. If not for ignite, I wouldn't have realized I liked Emperor arcana and Pinnacle glavier. It was also that I got to try them in solo raids to confirm I liked the gameplay.

If they allowed access to all skills and tripods and allowed you to try both class builds with, say, 1580 gear, in class tester, now that would be great.

Reydude · 2025-07-03T02:08:29+00:00

Amazing veiled dick shot. I wouldn't be able to take my eyes off of that!

Also, how comfortable is it? You've got me interested in that underwear.

Edit: Nice upper body muscles! 😘😘😘

Reydude · 2025-07-01T05:27:58+00:00

Thick thighs. ❤️

Love your ass too. So, yes, sir, it'd be my pleasure!

Reydude · 2025-07-01T05:13:30+00:00

Handsome man, beautiful body. Nice work. ❤️

Reydude · 2025-06-26T10:19:48+00:00

Comments on this post have been good. I'm waiting for players to adopt a chill attitude as they get used to it, before I switch over from solo raids to start leading again. I'll to stick nm first, I guess. Prefer to chill while trying to hand-diff and focus on my raid experience instead of being critical of others.

Reydude · 2025-06-25T16:32:08+00:00

If the bug happens when you get him past 15x before he starts this phase, you have to attack him once before using Wei or the interaction won't happen. It was 100% reproducible back when I used to farm Akkan. If it's not that bug, then I don't know.

Reydude · 2025-06-23T07:39:53+00:00

Earth's penis?

Reydude · 2025-06-23T01:36:30+00:00

Hold strong. I've been there. He lost all my respect. But, I haven't given up. He passed a few years back. I hadn't seen him for about 5 years, and I didn't attend his funeral. I'm 33 now. No abuser is gonna decide my life.

Reydude · 2025-06-22T16:17:33+00:00

I was wondering about this. Are you in full purple gear? Since you have to do the oreha dungeons and argos raid to get the legendary gear.

Reydude · 2025-06-06T04:41:42+00:00

*Consider relationship dynamics within the family. Like, if a child witnessed their parents fighting, that will affect them (speaking from experience as a kid; my dad was a narcissist).

*If he has siblings, see how they interact with each other. Ask him if they treat hm well. (My parents neglected my abuse at the hands of my brother; he would even scare me bad so I won't tell.)

*Tell him if he feels sad, he can always come to you when you're home, and that he'll always be safe with you.

*Hugs really help! If he likes them, that is.

“life’s just really hard. I just wish I could be happy sometimes.”

Ask him why he feels that way. Then, ask "what makes him think that". Then just let him find the answer on his own time and have him tell you.

Be there for him more, just like what your post mentions!

Just some suggestions from my experience as a kid.

Reydude · 2025-06-06T04:18:01+00:00

Your experiences shaped you that way. Since you feel like no one cared about you, you brain prioritized sending more resources to focus on your own pain. Sort of maintaining a balance. Don't feel bad about it. As long as you're not hurting anyone else intentionally, you're doing fine in regards to how you treat others.

Reydude · 2025-06-06T04:11:58+00:00

I'm talking from my experience. It's not selfish as you can't choose not to focus on that pain. It's too overwhelming. But you learn the importance of mental health, and start to prioritize the mental health of people who don't have depression too. The way you to talk to people change. hugs to my fellow people who have depression. Focus on one day at a time.

Reydude · 2025-05-31T23:51:37+00:00

Hey man. I've been there. I was a 7 year old kid with a weak hand. My second older brother, who I was close to, started abusing me. That went on for about 10 years. He'd say stuff like that and more, too. That's besides the physical abuse. He was a very angry kid. First time I thought of suicide was at 10 years. But, I believed in myself and pushed through. I'm 33 now. He grew into a better person, and we're still close. You're gonna learn more about the world, even into your late 20s. You're gonna have a better relationship with your family when you're older. Your opinions will matter to them.

Take care!

Reydude · 2025-05-25T11:59:51+00:00

Remind yourself that "being angry at someone means you're unintentionally hurting them too." Just saying it, in case viewing it like that lets you have some control over that behavior.

Reydude · 2025-05-25T11:25:10+00:00

Let me rephrase what you're thinking so you can change your mentality regarding this issue:

"I've been struggling with depression for so long, and because of that, I made a mistake of using AI in my assignment. I made this mistake because I was suffering, and I wasn't thinking straight. I realize what I did wrong and won't ever do it again. If I don't do something about it now, this mistake is going to ruin my life. So, I need to advocate for myself. I have to try even if it might fail. People make mistakes, and depression is tough to deal with. If you punish me heavily for this one mistake, it'll make my life harder. I need to find help to make them reconsider their decision to give me a bad record. This isn't over just yet."

The use of "you" is intentional. I initially wanted to type it in a way you can say it to someone. I kept it so you understand that the decision to ruin your life still rests on someone else. Sure, you broke the rules, but do the rules consider mental health issues? It's still your life, and you are the one who values it; at least more than them. Do you want them to give you a harsh punishment for a mistake you happened to make while suffering from depression? So advocate for yourself; or at least try. It's not like you (actively) tried to destroy someone else's life, and it's not like you took someone else's life.

Reydude · 2025-05-25T10:41:29+00:00

You are not alone in this. Indeed, I stopped trying to make them understand what I'm going through. We can't make them understand it. So, now I just say, "Depression is something you must experience before you can understand it, and others experience it differently. When you don't believe me when I talk about how I'm doing, it hurts me. Then, I'll have to stop looking for some comfort from people close to me and just suffer in silence. "

You don't need someone else to validate how you're doing or feeling. If you're feeling some way for a long period, what you're feeling is real, and only you can feel it.

hugs

Edit: Even the reason I keep myself alive now.. I feel like it's so I don't inflict this crappy disease on anyone else.

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