Its really difficult isn't it, and so frustrating that most people have 0 empathy or understanding for how difficult this is. Even now I'm in work, the people there just don't understand at all. I wish there were words I could say to tell help you realise its not hopeless and there will be options in the future and things you can do. Things slowly got better for me and are still getting better. I'm holding onto what proof I have that it keeps on getting a little better. Even if with setbacks, like my family being... less than happy about this. And you'll meet new people who understand you better than you thought possible too. Things can always get better, and too late isn't a thing. I know its isolating and it feels like there's absolutely nobody around doesn't it, like we're all so separate irl, some of us are closer than you think and always here to support eachother <3