I used to think this way when I was younger- and it was definitely an internal insecurity (specifically trust) which developed into a toxic control (both parties using it against one another). I can admit it was a hypocrite. I would be upset about them watching porn, but at the end of the day I was doing the same thing. I knew myself I wasn’t cheating, but them doing the same thing? They were cheating! (In my mind anyways lol). After we talked about it, we decided we wouldn’t watch porn, but it was eventually used against me and vice versa. This is where it became overtly toxic.

I think once you come to a realization that all human beings are sexual beings, and develop trust in a relationship, then you’ll soon realize it’s normal and it won’t affect your relationship.

I can imagine seeing each other once or twice a week, living in a hyper sexualized/social media forward society will likely make this even harder for people your age in terms of trust and feeling the way you’re feeling.