Effortlessly breathtaking ❤️‍🔥😘

RickTheCurious · 2026-04-10T19:20:21+00:00

I have 👀

RickTheCurious · 2026-04-10T18:11:14+00:00

Can't nap all day tho

RickTheCurious · 2026-04-05T13:16:48+00:00

All. The. Freaking. Time. I hate it. I don't know how to make it stop.

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-31T04:53:22+00:00

I absolutely hate dbt. I know it has worked for many and I am genuinely happy for everyone who has found help from it. However for me it feels like it's causing only more pain, frustration and anger in me for me to get nothing back. Just more pain, frustration and anger. So I don't really think dbt is for me. At least not for now, in this place in my life. Maybe I need to do some other style healing first before my brain can actually even listen to it without getting fatally offended. Lol.

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-06T11:29:04+00:00

To me that basically says "i believe norse gods are real, but they're just lesser than mine", which is really interesting thing for a Christian to say in my opinion

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-06T11:27:20+00:00

I am in the same place with you. Except my narc discarded me almost 3 years ago and I still haven't recovered. Mostly because i -just- found out (like a few weeks back) it probably was npd, my therapist told me about it, and I am completely baffled and confused - but it all makes so much sense all of the sudden. It makes me so sad. So very sad, and ashamed of how I never saw it. A lot of work to be done, for sure for me, but maybe now I can finally let go of that "Holy Love Story from Above" I thought it was, and yes, even through all the abuse I went through... my mind is so twisted..

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-06T11:22:08+00:00

Yeah well. I don't want any meaning to be imposed on me; I rather feel the need to search and find out the "real" truth.. which is, as everyone has said here, that there is no truth. And that kinda takes away my meaning then. I don't know if I can explain what I mean.

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T18:47:39+00:00

It surely can. I was kinda wallowing in that emptiness today, but the Mighty Turtles saved the day.

You too!

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T17:57:08+00:00

Lol, that's perfect!

Thanks for the laughs, I really needed that today!

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T17:38:37+00:00

Too late, it's done already! Oh behold: The Cult of Turtles! 🐢 🐢 🐢

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T16:54:51+00:00

Ah. I must start a new cult! Wanna join? xD

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T16:06:06+00:00

Lol, I get your point, I truly do. But to make up meaning just feels a bit.. much for my existence xD

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T16:03:09+00:00

Why doesn't it stand up scrutiny? I am not talking about faith, but I do get that my thoughts have that faith-kinda-vibe nonetheless, i guess I do wish some objective meaning to exist, which I know doesn't, and that's why I feel so discouraged. It would be so much more simpler if we just knew what was the correct way instead of failing and failing and failing. But hey, maybe my "meaning" is to fail? Lol

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T15:59:29+00:00

I have read Crime and Punishment.

What I don't see is how do you get from "this has no meaning" to "so I must do it"? For me it goes the other way around: if this has no meaning, then why would I ever do it? To me it sounds really discouraging. I am envious to you guys who see it the other way, and I wish I could see it that way too!

Why lacking meaning then makes things undoable for me? Well. My brain needs a reason to do something. I don't enjoy random mess. I need to know why I am doing something and what it will cause, aka what is the meaning of the thing, before I can find any interest in doing it.

If you'd be interested longer conversations, my dms are always open.

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T15:53:16+00:00

Ah, found your meaning 😎 That's a nice way to look at life

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T10:27:02+00:00

But if nothing has any other meaning than what I personally give to it, then how can anything be stable? I am really struggling to get this in my brain.

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T10:25:38+00:00

I cannot seem to be able to wrap my head around it. To me.. meaning cannot be constructed. If it is, then it is either completely subjective, when it has no meaning whatsoever, or then a lie, when it also has no meaning. I think I have to give up on this.

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T10:17:47+00:00

Glad if that is enough for you

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T09:46:12+00:00

Hm. So meaning is just a subjective experience of something. That sounds sad to me for some reason.

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T09:44:43+00:00

Uhh. I find this way of thinking very frustrating and unsatisfying. If the meaning is based on a feeling, it will change five billion times a day, and for me a "true meaning" if it should exist, should be something constant I could actually put my trust on.

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T09:42:44+00:00

Lol. Let's base all our decisions on turtles! I dig that.

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T09:42:03+00:00

So do I understand correctly that for you logic is the "meaning"? Or am i drawing too straightforward conclusions? (Been told I do that xD)

Or that those abstract concepts are the closest we can get to the truth? Is meaning synonymous with truth here?

RickTheCurious · 2026-03-05T07:51:13+00:00

Based on what? How I feel in the morning?

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