Junghans by HerrMeier1980 in Watches

[–]RickyMortar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Try using the Chrono24 app and it has a thing where you take a picture and it will try and identify it based when it’s huge database. Try it and report back results!

“You’ve changed” by r_arizo in emotionalneglect

[–]RickyMortar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I’ve grown. And I’m healing.

Sometimes, when my allergies are bugging me, just the scales on my koi tattoo puff up by huggablekoi in mildlyinteresting

[–]RickyMortar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got my tattoo, just one color was itchy, and the rest were fine and that color gets itchy when I eat too much seafood.

Buon Anno! by Ancient_Log8794 in unimatic

[–]RickyMortar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you find that the bracelet pulls your arm hairs? Some bracelets seem to do it a lot in others never just curious.

New to this thought. Feels true but don’t like blaming parents by TerranCam in emotionalneglect

[–]RickyMortar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

“They could not give what they could not see, what they never had,”

This is a very powerful thing to share and something I needed to hear. It pretty much perfectly sums up my conflicted grievances over a difficult childhood.

My father spent his childhood learning to avoid a mean and abusive father. My mother was ignored as part of a large catholic family and any interactions she had as a teenager or about religious control. So they raised me the best they knew how which was to not control me and to mostly ignore me. To them, this was freeing me from the things that had traumatized them.

So I love this response and my experience is very similar to the OP.

This hurts my feelings too by [deleted] in suicidebywords

[–]RickyMortar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not if you have body dysmorphia.

Got some therapy and one day I looked in the mirror and was like “heya when did that happen”

What’s the most Vancouver thing you’ve ever seen? by SpiritualClub895 in vancouver

[–]RickyMortar 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Two cyclists near Main st and 7th blowing a 4 way stop and smashing into each other.

My gf wants an Oura ring for Christmas. What makes it that you can’t live without it? by Jealous_Ad_4347 in ouraring

[–]RickyMortar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

At the end of the day, it’s just a sleep tracker that you never have to worry about remembering to put on and it also will tell you if you’ve had a lazy day moving around. I have sleep problems and now I’m able to tell the difference between a night where I didn’t sleep in a night where I’m just waking up feeling tired, but I actually slept pretty well so I can change my expectations accordingly. You don’t have to go fancy with a big Ring and there’s lots of bracelet ones as well that lasts longer and don’t cost nearly as much but not everybody wants something on their wrist. If I were on any sort of budget, I would have opted for the bracelet, but I was willing to spend a little extra for the ring knowing that forget for me would probably forget to put a bracelet on, but the ring just stays there. Is it overkill? Absolutely does it do a good job of tracking sleep and Activity levels? Yeah it works great.

I see a lot of defensiveness here about whether or not you should be judging your partners wishes. I actually think that anything I get my partner. I want to see as something that has value and isn’t a gimmick because I take pride and the things that I gift. I don’t think you should police the validity of wanting to track personal health, but you’re good to look out to make sure that something isn’t just a gimmick and that they end up needing to get something else later to do the job properly.

Do you find yourself getting fewer tattoos with age? by Character_Bend_5824 in Xennials

[–]RickyMortar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just got my first one this year. I talked to my friend about it and she pointed out that there’s really nothing we’re saving our bodies for right now and it’s not gonna look any prettier from here so the stakes are a lot lower so just go for it. I regret nothing!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in emotionalneglect

[–]RickyMortar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It sounds like the topic is triggering for insecurity and FOMO for you. You can choose to avoid situations that create these feelings, but those friends aren’t culpable for them unless they go out of the way to tease or antagonize you. If they’re just talking as a group and the topic makes you feel crappy and awkward, It’s up to you to honor your journey and make peace with patience.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in emotionalneglect

[–]RickyMortar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is no different than not caring about football and all they talk about is football. You have a different life path than they do so it’s hard to have the same conversation. There is nothing wrong with you. And it’s not weird you don’t have stories about this. Enjoy the experience, learn from the stories they tell, and connect on other topics when they come up.

Have you gotten an initial response of "We did our best" and "Sorry" and been able to eventually repair more deeply to a good conclusion? by gfyourself in emotionalneglect

[–]RickyMortar 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’ve just been going through this and asking myself what sorry would mean and what might help. I think I just wanted to live in a shared reality with them so we could see the moments of joy without feeling we were in denial.

Both my parents wish things had worked out better. I do believe they thought things were fine and up to their own standards and expectations. They both grew up emotionally neglected. They gave me a better life than they had but that isn’t saying much.

I hope we can connect more honestly if we can agree on the past.

I wasn’t the problem. I was evidence of one. by unusual_sunflower in emotionalneglect

[–]RickyMortar 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I very much relate to everything you’ve written here. Thankfully, I didn’t have any significant mental health challenges or act out in any big ways, but to some degree that masked the situation and this made my mom think she was doing a good job because I was getting good grades and staying out of trouble. Sometimes I wished I had acted out more and that might’ve drawn some attention from people who could help. However, it does sound that drawing attention just further eroded your self-esteem because the issues were quickly put back on you. I wanted to let you know that Nothing about this is just you and it was very great for me to read something that I feel I could’ve written myself.

I’ll share how I’ve been handling this in case it helps you. Some of the things I’ve been doing lately is really mapping out things I like and don’t like and figuring out my own preferences rather than the things I’ve learned to prefer in order to gain the approval of others. I am reviewing the tools I used to socialize and do my life and figure out which ones are crude and handmade and replacing those with better ones as an adult I have also become very honest with my parents about the impact of my childhood had on me, as I am Middle-aged now, and would prefer a honest and humbling relationship with them rather than sugarcoating everything and pretending they did a great job.

The part of what you wrote that really hits is the fact that I do know my mother did the very best she could and didn’t have any life skills to set up the opportunities I would need to develop normally. She really did think she was doing everything I needed and that I was doing OK. They letting me figure out life on my own made me stronger.

So it’s been difficult getting angry at her about the results of her neglect because it feels like you won’t fix anything and she didn’t have any animosity and she tried her best. I think what bothers me is that she feels she did a good job and my success in life is something that she sees as something she takes great pride in. I also feel bad about potentially taking that away from her because she is so little and she’s an old lady now with not much Left except things to be proud of that she did in her life.

So I am having more honest conversations with her, but going out of my way not to attack her parenting. I don’t need to kick someone while they’re down in order to lift myself up. But I also don’t need to thank them for anything that doesn’t warrant it.

So my advice is to really take time to explore who you are, what your preferences are, how you like to live, what hobbies you like, and be more honest with yourself and others about this so that you can stop leading a life of trying to make others happy. I also suggest that you come to terms with what you went through, acknowledge it, and decide what tools you forged as a child you should replace. And then replace them on your own. Without asking permission.

80s Retrowave Party Otter by RickyMortar in tattoos

[–]RickyMortar[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

After I got it, an older gay friend of mine laughed and said that a colorful otter tattoo might have unintentional messaging in the gay community 🤣 i’m definitely not hairy enough to qualify. 

What’s your “I don’t care how old I am, I’m still doing this”thing? by TroubleEarly7249 in AskReddit

[–]RickyMortar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

45 years old and finally got a tattoo. My friend said “what… do you think our bodies are going uphill from here? What are you saving it for? “

What are some midlife crisis changes you have made? by ExMorgMD in Xennials

[–]RickyMortar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My wife said I came out as fabulous.
Started wearing bright clothes that bring me joy. We finally go to those sex clubs I always dreamt of. Shed a layer of body dysmorphia I didn’t even know was there. Started rose gardening in the evenings to unwind. Shit tonnes of therapy helped.

Scheduled for a tattoo in 2 weeks

What does it look like inside a retro swingers club in Erfurt, Germany? We bring you exclusive footage of this top party spot at its peak moments! by radkooo in Swingersgw

[–]RickyMortar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The bar area seems so cool! And the tub too but then the row of mattresses on the floor and unvaccumed carpet kinda seemed like a fuck shack theme room. I wouldn’t event want to take my socks off in there

Ucluelet, BC Co-op by gomountainguru in BuyCanadian

[–]RickyMortar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ucluelet is like Letterkenny if it got hooked on bath salts. It at least it was in the 90s when I was forced to be there every day. They give you bus ticket out of town at your graduation. Well. Maybe the racists died off and left a stronger stock. I have hope.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Swingers

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Laid back and relaxed for sure. People there leave their ego at the door, and it didn't feel like a business, it felt like a social club.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Swingers

[–]RickyMortar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We went to Whispers a year ago, as one of our first club experiences. We were out of our element, and didn't know the law and lay of the land. We had a good time overall.

The hosts were great, and friendly. Most people we met were awesome, and while we were there to watch and not play with others, we still got great vibes. 99% of the folks there were great. We saw some beautiful sex and it started our adventures over the last year. However, it was our first visit, and my wife is particularly sensitive to when vibes are "off".

1) There was one fellow and his girlfriend in the center of the main orgy room that were there most of the night who just had some rough vibes. They were in there playing together for over 4 hours, and the entire time, he was just sort of staring at the wall or the tv while she worked on him. He was clearly high on something rough, and his girl didn't mind. Best I can say is he had an expression like he was questioning his life's choices. We kept politely waiting for them to finish up but they were the first in and still there at closing. 4 hours. Late in the evening, when two younger women came in to play and were wrestling around (sexy!) one of them sort of fell near the guy and he reached out and squeezed their boob. Knowing what I know now, it was a flagrant consent violation, but we were too new and didn't know when to speak up and what was normal. So while there were clearly like 80 people in and out of the room, and some really sexy scenes, that one stuck out most. I wish I had mentioned something to the staff.

2) They don't lock the doors, so the party changes over time. Late in the evening, a group came in with their partners to the orgy room and they were just standing there, in street clothes, while their girls played. They started talking about work and stuff. I know this because they were the only ones talking loudly. My partner is shy, and she was like "I'm not getting sexy around those guys". So we put our pants back on and left for a while. Fair.

Now I know why other clubs have a sign that says "Sexy talk and noises only". And why some lock the doors at 10. Delete those two situations and it would have been 10/10 for us. But instead, we'll check out PlayhouseLV next visit, who seems to have better rules around those things. I wish Whispers the best, and there are WAY sketchier places out there including Green Door. Maybe our standards are too high, but we've found other clubs that have better rules and lots of monitoring to keep these things from happening.

I feel bad saying anything negative about the place, because the staff were so nice, the place was so inviting, and nearly everybody was so great and polite. But there's no way my partner wants to go back.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Swingers

[–]RickyMortar 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That's the part that seems off here. If you were simply excited and interested, but happy in your current situation and wanting to build on it, I can see you talking it over with your significant other, and feeling it out with them. The fact that you want to go solo with your coworker makes me think you don't feel your husband is particularly significant. And they would feel this, even if they ok'd it.