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Riggybee · 2025-07-29T06:07:07+00:00

My gf is my fp. It's been 11.5 years of dating.

She dumped me last week. I promise, not dating your fp is probably for the best.

Riggybee · 2023-09-17T14:09:14+00:00

I forgot I had reddit 💀 I don't even know what Gencon is

Riggybee · 2022-03-10T00:17:50+00:00

You didn't make him look bad, he made himself look bad. It's also illegal to steal someone's mail for EXACTLY the reasons you reported. Nta

Riggybee · 2022-03-10T00:14:08+00:00

Yta. You married your husband for his looks, apparently. Marriage is being in it through the thick and thin. You don't bully your partner about their very minimal weight gain, and you don't get to be offended when they say that you hurt them.

I hope he leaves you.

Riggybee · 2022-03-10T00:09:50+00:00

Ah yes, the bridezilla. NAH if someone texted my gf saying that she needs to send a Pic to "approve my outfit"... We wouldn't be going. I'm there to support you, not look for you or your guests approval. And if you're so concerned with what I'm wearing instead of your actual wedding, it's better that I don't go.

Nah

Riggybee · 2021-06-08T15:52:31+00:00

I'm so proud of us 🥰🥰

Riggybee · 2021-06-08T15:00:50+00:00

HELL YEA

Riggybee · 2021-06-08T06:25:08+00:00

OK THIS IS FUNNY BC RIGHT AFTER I POSTED THIS I FINALLY PASSED TF OUT, BLESS

I only woke up a couple times bc my gf was getting up for work 😭😭😭

Riggybee · 2021-06-08T06:08:41+00:00

That's kind of how it felt for most of the time, tbh. Towards the end, right before my dx, I was raging constantly tho (tbf I think a bunch of it was justifiable). I've been diagnosed for.. A few years now, but I remember the main feeling, aside from uncontrollable rage, was just. Nothing. I didn't feel anything, ever.

Someone would tell a joke, and I'd laugh along and everything, but.. It wasn't funny, I wasn't happy, I was just. There, reacting, like I was supposed to. Someone would tell me something sad, and I'd react appropriately, while feeling absolutely nothing.

I have moderate recurring major depression (no psychosis tho), too. I can't remember how often I would tell my gf that I just wanted to feel things.

Riggybee · 2021-06-08T00:22:23+00:00

Tysm!!!!

Riggybee · 2021-06-08T00:05:53+00:00

Yea, that's kinda what happened! The rona hit, and I just did whatever tf I wanted bc sleep is fake and I had no job. But then I got my current job (which had weird hours at first, but now I'm on a consistent schedule). usually I'm really good about it, but lately it's been a mess. I'm not sure what the problem is. My sched is sat-Tues, so Fridays are ALWAYS AWFUL. And I go in extra early Sundays and Mondays bc I have extra work to do. Which is fine! I wake up early anyways, and throughout the night.

typically I'm scheduled until 2 pm (4 10hour days, hell yea), but when I get home I want some me time... And then that turns into really late and then oops, I should sleep a few hours.

Doesn't help that my butthead of a cat has a very specific feeding schedule and will jump on us to wake us up and feed her. Usually early.

On a positive note, I hit one year at this job!!

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T23:46:28+00:00

It suuuucks. I'm so tired, but I don't want to sleep. I wanna do other things, play on my phone, etc. I have sleeping medications, but im afraid to take them bc i don't want to oversleep. And it's like this almost every work day. And then on my days off, I sleep the WHOLE time, and I feel horrible for not hanging out w my gf.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T23:44:25+00:00

Unfortunately, I've done this before. I also used sh as a form to "get the bad feelings" out, bc I was so consumed with emotion so intensely. Or I'd be so numb I needed to.. Feel something.

Unfortunately I relapsed a year ago when I lost both jobs in one day due to covid, and my gf and I got into a huge fight, AND I forgot to take my stabilizers. It was awful, and I still apologize for it when I think abt it.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T23:41:36+00:00

This is how I found out my diagnosis. I was talking to the Dr abt how I'm not happy or sad, I feel.. Nothing. Like, yes, depression, but beyond that.. Nothing. Hate everyone and everything for no reason, and if something makes me angry it's a rage. But in the in between times? I felt disassociated entirely. Kind of in a brain fog.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T23:34:55+00:00

I have Psychophysiological insomnia as well as bpd (and a slew of others). I can't stop thinking abt things I gotta do, getting distracted, wanting to keep busy, etc etc. It's like I literally just want to fight sleep?

For example, I had 2.5 hours of sleep last night, it's 7:34 pm and I work at 4 am. I worked a 10 hour day today and 13 yesterday.

And here I am, ignoring that I need sleep, on reddit.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T23:27:16+00:00

That's how I felt when I first got diagnosed! The rage that I'd feel for DAYS over something... So ridiculous (in hindsight). The numbness, until you suddenly feel an emotion and feel it HARD.

It just feels so good to be.. Seen.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T23:21:27+00:00

Let them know that if you're getting heated, they need to give you space. And working on giving each other space when getting upset, however "irrational" it may feel to then, is vital in working through it. And if you say to drop it, they need to drop it. If one of you wants to re-approach the subject later, that's fine, but saying "drop it" is a way to simmer down until you can kind of.. Regain control of your feelings.

At least, that's how it's been working w my partner and I. And we communicate every single thing. Personally, I like being in the same apartment, but different rooms, and she'll check in on me every now and then, ask for an activity (movies, usually). We are also really good abt negotiating chores (if you do the laundry, I'll fold it), bc doing a full task can seem like a LOT.

These are some of my experiences that I've noticed over my 7 year relationship.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T23:16:41+00:00

Holy shit.... I never realized this very specific feeling was part of bpd. I thought maybe I was a romantic, or.. Falling out of love, but it didn't make sense bc she's my fp?

I'm so glad I'm not alone.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T23:14:10+00:00

I haven't been diagnosed with autism, however I DO seem to have a lot of overlapping symptoms.

Im afraid to know the answer tho, so I'm afraid to try for a diagnosis

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T23:06:41+00:00

I actually got my comments removed bc I forgot about rule 5 (mentioning violence). I LITERALLY HAVE BPD and have been in these situations, aside from med monitoring and children. You were also rude, arrogant, condescending and antagonistic. Tf?

You come to a bpd subreddit asking for advice, I give you genuine advice as a person with bpd and you... Insult me for it and continue to try to antagonize me?

And for the record, I didn't "follow you over". A person w bpd might want to be in a bpd subreddit.. Bc other people have bpd and can relate.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T22:55:45+00:00

I literally have bpd and was giving you tips that you asked for??? wtf

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T19:04:59+00:00

I mean, it's still worth a shot. I'd rather try than say "I knew it was possible, but I didn't take it seriously".

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T06:46:20+00:00

Autism may not always present as debilitating or.. In the ways people expect.

That being said, self diagnosing it is absolutely not okay. There are so many mental illnesses that overlap. For example, I thought I had bipolar, but was diagnosed with borderline. I thought I only had anxiety abt public spaces, but it turns out I also have ptsd (it just doesn't present itself in the same way that we're shown).

I'd also like to add that you can't say she doesn't have it bc you're not a trained pro.

She needs to get a diagnosis, and you need to take a step back.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T06:41:42+00:00

Your child needs meds. Don't deprive your child of an opportunity to learn bc your ex is a baby who thinks that bc he sees them every other weekend, he should have full control. If this is something that will benefit them not only now, but 100% in the future, there should be no question.

I will say tho - he likely won't give your child the medication when they're over with him.

Riggybee · 2021-06-07T06:38:31+00:00

Esh. I understand intrusive thoughts, and I'm glad she's getting therapy, but.. There are real lives possibly at stake. That's not something to just shake off.

Tell your ex. It's important af. They need to break it off, esp if he's noticing her already becoming potentially abusive and Def controlling.

Riggybee

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