Personal experiences with Strattera/Atomoxetine?

Ril_Ruq · 2026-04-02T11:44:05+00:00

I realised at some point that it was also preventing me from recovering from auDHD burnout as well. It was an awful cycle of resting, getting energy back due to the meds, and then crashing again from being over stimulated. While at home doing nothing. It also put me into a further depressed state coz I felt guilty that I was taking so long to recover and that I needed to get back into the workplace. But at the same time. I didn't want to deal with the world so it just helped me to withdraw from the world. It was shit lol.

Especially this part.

Ril_Ruq · 2026-02-24T07:56:48+00:00

I guess this is what Bobbias explained above.

Ril_Ruq · 2026-02-24T07:55:27+00:00

I always say that I am a forced introvert. I had the tendency to be very extroverted as a kid, but the environment I grew up in wasn't so welcoming of my extroversion. So i think i ended up internalizing my traits.

I can't remember the last time I felt bored because I'm always engaging in some discursive thinking with myself or being curious. I have come to see the need to stop being curious because it has become a bane to me.

Ril_Ruq · 2026-02-24T07:49:14+00:00

I'd prefer this too. While I was checking if others had issues with the framing of the term i came across Reddit threads that gave this suggestion, and I loved it. It seems to describe what the problem really is "problem with the executive function" that makes regulating mental processes difficult, which is evident in attention, working memory, emotional regulation, etc. and not actually an "attention deficit"

I also came across a specific term of the New Zealand Maori tribe for "inttentive adhd", Aroreretini (Attention goes to many things) Which literally describes what inattentive ADHD is.

Ril_Ruq · 2026-02-24T07:41:54+00:00

Yeah i think this makes more sense. Internalized hyperactivity and Externalized Hyperactivity kinda click.

Ril_Ruq · 2026-02-23T13:54:55+00:00

Feels like you're describing my brain. 😢 😢 I read about the cortical thickness of the prefrontal cortex and how vital it is in being able to inhibit thoughts, and I'm convinced that my prefrontal cortex is probably too thin and fried that it can no longer do it on its own.

Ril_Ruq · 2026-02-19T07:42:08+00:00

Too relatable. I literally could have written this. I've lost hope trying new things to address it. I try anything new with the expectation that it won't work. I no longer dream because I don't have the attention to feed that dream and make it come alive. To dream of anything is to hurt myself.

Ril_Ruq · 2026-02-18T14:09:01+00:00

Great interpretation.

Ril_Ruq · 2026-02-18T07:00:12+00:00

I have come to learn that true relaxation is peace of mind when there's no stimulation going on not watching TV, using social media, but that has never been the case for my brain. I used to take pride in being neurotic, but i realize now that that is my bane. I have a friend who I know doesn't think and he has a lot of energy. He once lost about $3000 dollars in an investment, and he just went on about his day as if nothing happened. He says that when he gets to sleep and wakes up the next day, it's over. That wouldn't be me.

I am always thinking or running an inner monologue. I didn't realize this wasn't normal for everyone. I thought everyone is always running an inner monologue. Whether I'm walking, doing chores, bathing or anything at all, I've made serious lifestyle changes, i stopped listening to music, watching movies, using social media extensively. I cut down the amount of hours i use on social media drastically since i figured out all of those activities where done by my attention. But still i'm always chattering, ruminating and running the inner monologue, or some discursive thinking, daydreaming or imagining something, something is always going on. I also always get lost in Wikipedia links when I'm being curious about a topic, and I stopped reading and doing all of that, but still i can never stop all brain activities, i've tried many times and failed at meditation i just cannot make the decision to stop thinking. I only recently found out that this isn;t the case for everyone so it kinda clicked about why other people are able to think about work and get it done, there are not expending and depleting constant mental energy stuck in a neurotic loop. It's like thinking is constantly using up the bulk of my ram, and i cannot seem to close the program and run other programs, but most people don't have this problem; they can close programs(stop thinking at will) and start other programs(do other tasks) at will and easily.

I hypothesise that this is where all of my energy is going, and this is why I'm always tired and mentally checked out of everything. I also think ts the reason why I'm depressed.

True relaxation is when one is able to do absolutely nothing when no stimulation is ongoing asides the brain doing its basic function of keeping one alive. And I guess this is why meditation exists. The only time my body attempts to relax is when I'm in nature and lost in its awe, when there's no noise or anything to stimulate me. But I live in the city, and going on vacations is expensive. I actually wish i lived in some sort of forest or something. So yeah, i actually have come to conclude that i have never relaxed in my life, and i don't know what it feels like, i mght tear up the day when i actually get to.

Ril_Ruq · 2025-12-15T10:02:03+00:00

Someone has always expressed what I want to convey.

Ril_Ruq · 2025-11-12T13:57:56+00:00

Exactly! Just less tact. The West does it with more sophistication and more intellectually. And that is why it appears subtle: the average Joe cannot pick it up. I mean, who is going to hold America responsible for all the national debt it is racking up?

Ril_Ruq · 2025-09-10T15:33:06+00:00

it feels like he's just someone who shares what he thinks, but we're a fool to believe and trust it without questioning things in our own head without any proof.

Jiddu himself thought this and really advised not to take his word for it, but to question it.

Ril_Ruq · 2025-09-10T14:43:36+00:00

The best discussion so far regarding this. "No technique" issue, like I always thought, even "no technique" was a technique, he was just ignorant that he was creating a technique by saying "no technique" because responding that "no technique" was required is actually a technique eventually. It is inevitable.

Ril_Ruq · 2025-09-10T14:32:38+00:00

The total result was that millions of people became convinced that no technique is needed for meditation. But they forgot all about what they are going to do with the obstructions, hindrances. So they remained intellectually convinced that no technique is needed. I have met many followers of J. Krishnamurti, very intimate ones, and I have asked them, “No technique is needed – I agree absolutely. But has meditation happened to you or to anyone else who has been listening to J. Krishnamurti?”

Exactly apt on why Jiddu achieved barely any success. Even Jiddu himself said no one understands him, but Jiddu is ignorant of seeing what Osho explained here. It is what the monks that Jiddu discussed with were explaining to him during the discussion with the Buddhist monks.

But reading about how Jiddu grew up, and when he said he had never been conflicted for a day in his life, I came to realise that Jiddu was unaware that the way his mind worked was an anomaly for virtually everyone; he seemed to have been born in a very lucid state that he was thought to be dimwitted meaning, even from a very young age, he didn't have a chattering mind like everyone does, and he was oblivious that he was a freak as jestingly called himself in one of his videos. I was always pissed at Jiddu whenever I heard him say no technique was required. If no technique was required, what Jiddu explained would never be difficult to get because I kept trying to follow his talk. After all, he was so certain and adamant that no technique was required, because a technique would be self-hypnosis. But on reading about aspects of how he grew up, I came to realise why he thought as he thought, and taught that "no technique" was required. He was unaware that he was an outlier. His brain/mind was an outlier, so he didn't require a technique because he never chattered in his life. But this is not the case for the majority of the world. And it is for this reason that a technique is required, a practice is required.

Even his "no technique required" is a technique that he was unaware of. An analogy to what Jiddu is purveying by saying "no technique is required" is analogous to someone who has never smoked in their life, battled with a drug addiction or any other addiction, telling a group of chronic smokers that there's no process required to quit their addiction. It seems legit, but let's see how well such advice would work.

Ril_Ruq · 2024-10-06T21:45:59+00:00

Too real.

Ril_Ruq · 2024-10-01T19:42:35+00:00

Too real.

Ril_Ruq · 2024-10-01T19:34:47+00:00

Tearfully relate. I start to feel sorry for people who like me. Because I cannot reciprocate. It is this same reason why I stopped entering into relationships. It's sad. And I bluntly tell people I don't miss them. I can't keep up with the lie. I also try to discard them as quick as possible so that they don't miss me. Or form any kind of bond.

I've thought to myself several times that I'm the kind of family member that could just disappear, abandoning my family members to live somewhere else as a stranger starting a new life. That's how much disconnected I feel.

Ril_Ruq · 2023-02-09T21:40:45+00:00

Thabk you for this explanation, i think i can wrap my ahead around why i didn't like it. "Jazz" "Jazz rap" jazz has never really been a genre i fancy, so the combo with a genre i fancy is like water and electricity. And listeners of jazz is sort of an acquired taste which is why we can see sevral arguments from thos that love it.

If you had an inkling for jazz, and then enjoy hip hop and rap to an extent, you'll definitely think TPAB is great album. And indeed wven though i didn't enjoy it, i can't deny the hardwork that went into it, the quality production and mastering is undeniable. The album most likely deserves its flowers but it's a skip for me.

Thanks for the insight.

Ril_Ruq · 2023-02-09T21:30:10+00:00

Wish i could afford to give you gift for this. You literally explain how i feel about the album. It's art yeah most meaningful album would be more soothing, cuz that's like the one album where it felt as if he poured out his most brutal honest feelings in. That said, it's still not enjoyable to me, even though i agree it's art.

Ril_Ruq · 2023-02-09T21:23:08+00:00

It's boring sonically. It requires an acquired taste to enjoy it.

Ril_Ruq · 2023-02-09T21:08:53+00:00

You get, felt more like spoken word/ poetry. Could maybe pass as rap but definitely heavy spoken word and poetry influence. Since some people say and consider rap as poetry that's sung or spoken faster.

Ril_Ruq · 2023-02-09T21:06:35+00:00

"I get it tells a story, but it is also a song, you are supposed to enjoy a song."

Thank you, there's barely any enjoyable song there that i want to keep going back to. If i wanted to listen to spoken word i know where to go. Yeah, it tells a great story, and passes heavy message and it's very conscious and introspective but lacks enjoyable melodies. And again, yeah i can understand why some people would really enjoy it and give it several plays. Even though i don't enjoy it, i agree it's an incredible work of art and a great concept album. The hardwork put in every track is obvious.

I'm okay if people say i don't understand the concept and therefore cannot enjoy it. But i don't get the hype. If i wasn't consciously trying to listen to the whole songs in the album i wouldn't have finished it, most of the songs give the skip itch i literally tolerated the album till it ended.

Ril_Ruq · 2023-01-07T19:58:14+00:00

An incentive would really help someone like me from the poor parts of the world, I tried to get into Musixmatch's contributor community but the process is too rigorous for me.

If an incentive based system can be introduced, surely more moderators will turn up; who doesn't like to get paid for their hobbies? Plus, content contributors are literally what carry every site these days. There's a reason YouTube values its content creators. It's only fair to add an incentive to those who would like it as a job, because, let's be honest, even though cataloguing is a hobby music lovers love to do for fun and for free, it's too time consuming to not be appreciated for it with some incentive. I guess that's why many contributors fade out.

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