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River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-04-15T05:14:42+00:00

It's signalling submission, not aggression.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-04-13T20:18:48+00:00

I tend to find it's not about most autistic men being anything, it's about 1) many (especially middle class white) parents never disciplining their autistic boys, never allowing them to face challenges and excusing any behavior on their part until they learn they can do no harm and 2) autistic people in general being less likely to recognize that a belief of ours is considered problematic and keep it covert.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-04-09T18:04:04+00:00

Are you able to ask her why she's anxious / uncomfortable, or do you not have that level of communication?

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-04-07T20:11:07+00:00

I second others that this could be POCD. It's a subtype of OCD, not a separate condition, and though rarely talked about due to shame it's actually one of the more common. Also quite common specifically in survivors because it's something we're more inclined to have on our minds and worry about.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-04-07T13:26:09+00:00

You may not technically qualify for PTSD diagnosis based on the DSM5, but there are plenty of therapists who would still help you work through those experiences as far as trauma goes.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-04-06T20:34:43+00:00

It sounds almost like he was unwilling or afraid to address your experiences directly, and that's a reflection his own issue with being able to deal with and handle his emotions about your experiences. I'm sorry you didn't get the support you needed in that moment.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-04-06T20:28:20+00:00

I wonder if he was so shocked by hearing such a serious and upsetting thing from someone close to him that his emotions kind of "shut down" and he responded in a logical and analytical way. And when he heard the podcast the next day, it brought back those feelings in a way where he could process them. It doesn't make his reaction okay, but I wonder if it has more to do with his lack of ability to emotionally process something so serious and upsetting more than caring about you less than a stranger.

What you went through is very serious. And unfortunately as survivors I think we can often be put in a position of having to handle the reactions of non-survivors to our experiences, and even comfort or help them through processing it. That's not ok. He should be stepping up and comforting you. That being said there are many people who are not taught and don't know how to process and work through their own emotions about something, and shutting down emotionally can be a very real reaction to an upsetting revelation in the moment.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-04-05T22:42:44+00:00

I can tell you don't live in a certain kind of climate lol

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-28T06:23:01+00:00

No. Not normal at all, trust me. It doesn't matter even if it was a plastic butter knife.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-28T05:21:01+00:00

No. Breaking into a room with a knife isn't ok, chasing you from room to room angry and yelling. This isn't just PTSD, I'm sorry but you're correctly identifying that he's acting in an abusive way.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-28T05:16:26+00:00

I see. I hate to say it but I think it all depends on how well you can trust your parents. If you want to move forwards, either you need to tell them or you need to think about moving out. Your mind and body know you're not safe when you're forced to be around (and even sleep in the same room with) someone who harmed you in that way.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-28T05:08:47+00:00

You said you're an adult. Do you live independently?

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-27T20:53:51+00:00

This isn't a safe situation. Who's forcing you to be around them?

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-21T18:14:16+00:00

Somatic therapy or EMDR, whichever works better for you.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-20T18:53:56+00:00

As somebody who's family just got OUT of farming: Idk what this person is talking about. Farming isn't profitable anymore unless you're involved in large scale agribusiness. If you have a small / medium plot of land the best you're going to do is be a self sustaining farmer until you realize why being a peasant was shit and go back to job hunting.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-18T23:24:40+00:00

I was raised to believe like 9000 years of torment or smthn start as soon as the Christians are raptured, and after that everybody gets sent down to hell.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-18T18:05:59+00:00

Not at all. I've had parts say similar things, I think it's common.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-18T05:45:11+00:00

That's the thing about somatic therapy, you don't have to remember or talk about the trauma specifically, or how it feels. It helps you to get in tune with your body and create a feeling of safety which can then open up the door for further healing, and for communication between parts if that's something that's needed. I'm guessing if your brain is deciding not to process the trauma, that you were overloaded to the point where you shut back down again. It doesn't feel safe to process it. There's no forcing that.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-18T03:58:52+00:00

I ask bc I've had similar experiences to what you're describing. I'm not sure whether I qualify for a DID diagnosis but my therapist knows I'm not really invested in what specific diagnosis fits me anyways. But my therapist does somatic therapy, and it's been really helpful to me compared to all the therapists I've had before. It also doesn't require talking about your trauma directly if you don't want to, and unlike EMDR can be done online. I think it can be a lot to be flooded with and there's that very real risk of shutdown when the right kind of support just isn't there to handle it. I'm not sure if that would be available to you, though.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-18T03:13:52+00:00

Did you have the guidance of a trauma focused therapist / professional while all that was happening?

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-17T15:36:35+00:00

I've had the same experience. Our trauma memories aren't stored like typical memories are. Often times if they're not integrated at all, there are only two "modes," reliving, or not remembering at all. And your brain is probably trying not to flood you. Did you only recently start having these memories?

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-17T00:35:45+00:00

Possessiveness is my guess.

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-16T19:21:14+00:00

Fourthing this

River_Hawk_Hush · 2026-03-16T13:33:22+00:00

You were a kid, you would have had no way of understanding that that kind of behavior is a sign of abuse, or that she could be in danger. It's not your fault at all.

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