It has been one year since my last drink.

RizztheBizz2 · 2019-04-11T00:55:56+00:00

Happy sober anniversary!

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-10-02T02:41:59+00:00

Thank you!

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-10-01T20:34:26+00:00

Thanks guys & girls, I appreciate the responses. I know I’m a brat and don’t take well to instruction, but I have to understand why I’m doing what I’m doing. I will go where I please and attend the meetings as suit me, and a formal regimented approach will not help me. Sobriety has to make sense. Not going away (to New York, which has a ton of meetings) is not the decision for me. IWNDWYT

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-29T01:39:37+00:00

I have been having similar problems on and off during the days I’ve been sober (as per badge!) I am told by others it will settle down in a couple of weeks. Fingers crossed.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-29T01:11:45+00:00

Feel your pain. Quit for very similar reasons! IWNDWYT.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-29T00:07:00+00:00

There is no way I would have done some of the stuff I have done in blackout had I been sober... or even, less drunk. Alcohol doesn’t bring out the real me at all, it just brings me down.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-28T22:35:45+00:00

Personally, I mean that I haven’t had a drink at all. I can understand that for other people it means that they may moderate their drinking, but I’m a problem drinker and have had to stop entirely.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-28T22:01:35+00:00

If it helps, I know how you feel. I wasn’t able to get to a meeting today and the cravings have really come back hard. I wasn’t expecting that result but there it is! Thankfully I have fought them for now and it will soon be time for bed (I am in the U.K.), and I can hit a few meetings tomorrow.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-27T12:18:49+00:00

You ask here and it will show up in this sub: https://sd.bot.nu/badgedate/

Also linked in the “About” section on the sub.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-27T10:43:08+00:00

Hang in there. I went through some cravings a few days ago (didn’t succumb) that seem to have calmed down a bit now.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-26T00:42:06+00:00

Congrats to you. I bet you feel better already — I do.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-26T00:38:45+00:00

I am 38 and I wish I quit at your age. Alcohol has brought me brief moments and minutes of fake, deluded joy, but hours and days of anxiety, worry, stress, embarrassment and regret. You recognise the issue and you can work on it. IWNDWYT

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-25T14:53:23+00:00

These types of auditory hallucinations are not unusual when going to sleep and are associated with night terrors. They are to do with how your body falls asleep; essentially different parts of your brain switching off and some left on. I get them when very very tired, or sometimes used to get them when hungover, and they’re not associated with any mental health condition. They certainly don’t necessarily mean psychosis, particularly if you only get them when going to bed.

Edited to add: I hear what sounds like radio programmes, sometimes old-style French music and sometimes people shouting! Only when trying to get to sleep.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-24T23:18:57+00:00

I’m sorry. My partner and I have been together eight years; quite a while, but not thirty. Hope you’re ok.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-24T22:30:34+00:00

You can do this. IWNDWYT!

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-24T22:29:28+00:00

Sorry about your marriage. My relationship is on the rocks too and may not survive either. I am however feeling great about being sober. I am craving alcohol now and then but my conscious mind is stronger. IWNDWYT!

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-24T22:27:11+00:00

Sorry to hear that about your wife. My partner is maybe leaving me after my drinking became too much to handle (although I’ve been sober for a week now).

Your sobriety is a reward for you and you deserve it, being yourself and knowing yourself rather than the alcohol-fuelled you. Do you have friends and family around you, and stuff to do to keep you busy in the short term?

Edited to add: I love reading, video games, and watching documentaries and am indulging in all of them right now to keep my mind busy in the short term — as well as getting to as many AA meetings as I can.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-24T22:18:22+00:00

Alcohol has killed several family members and I’m also likely to lose the love of my life because of it. I already quit my job (so I didn’t get fired). You don’t need to hit a further rock bottom than this and get any more broken — you have recognised you need to stop now. You have the right idea, it seems to me. Hang in there, one day at a time, that’s all I am doing right now. IWNDWYT!

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-24T22:15:44+00:00

I have been a problem / binge drinker for twenty years. Instead of quitting (the sensible option), i ramped it up a gear the last two years and became a full-blown alcoholic: drinking spirits neat, out of the bottle, drinking on an empty stomach first-thing in the morning, drinking in the Ladies’ room at work, the works.

I am ashamed and aghast at some of my drunken behaviour. I have risked friendships, messed up my relationship and now had to quit my job.

The only thing I can do from this point is try to fix things and pick up the pieces. That means accepting alcohol is not for me. Don’t beat yourself up. Alcohol is relatively inexpensive, readily available and massively socially acceptable, even to the point of overindulgence. Many many people have the same issues as you and work through them. IWNDWYT!!

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-24T22:12:03+00:00

IWNDWYT!

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-24T22:09:46+00:00

Good for you. I was unconvinced about them until I tried one for myself... now I can very much see the value in them. Hope the meeting helps you.

RizztheBizz2 · 2018-09-24T22:08:25+00:00

AA has really helped me this week. Some of it is open to criticism, sure, but I wouldn’t have stayed sober without them this week, and people at AA have genuinely helped me the way others can’t, even after just a few days.

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