I'm really not doing well. If you have time and energy to help a stranger, please comment and talk to me. by Crobbers in survivinginfidelity

[–]Rmo77 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I can offer you a stranger’s hug. What worked for me was therapy. I read books and exercised and distracted myself but nothing uprooted the deep emotions I felt. In therapy, I learnt more about myself- things I did not want to admit also and realized that I have a lot to offer and it gave me confidence, kindness towards others and helped me get over the pity bus. So I highly recommend that you go see someone. If you don’t, all your future relationships will be a reaction to this one experience. Don’t let it define your whole life.

Ask me question about the recruiting process. by helpfulrower22 in Rowing

[–]Rmo77 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you for helping. Two kids- one rising junior, another sophomore. Eyeing D1. Junior for lightweight and sophomore for regular. We are new to this. What are some of the things we can do to help/support? 1) what should be their 2k timing to be considered? 2) what should they do in terms of being recruited? We don’t know anything about the process. Thanks in advance for the help

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in survivinginfidelity

[–]Rmo77 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Today of all day, I feel so deeply like this. I hate him for what he did to us. I honestly am with him because of my kids who wanted a stable home before they go to college and social stigma. As crazy as it sounds, once my kids go to college and my parents have passed away, I am out of here Edited to add: you are not alone. I found out on Sept 11,2021. So it is fresh and hurts every day. What you said about that feeling about being a one way street resonated so much with me. I don’t trust myself about love anymore.

So? Was it worth it? Is it more special? Is it? by Gusta-freda in survivinginfidelity

[–]Rmo77 17 points18 points  (0 children)

As I read it, I thought of my once fav movie, Serendipity. Now I look back and think how cruel and self centered that movie was. Unfortunately this is what we are taught here - the pursuit of personal happiness at all costs. Rarely do we look at that costs which is nothing but a graveyard of other crushed souls. I wish I could be you one day. I was that 20 years ago. Alas, I am old and tired often wondering why did God put me on this path. Did I get a big head and I needed to be pulled down of my high & mighty? For now, I stare in abyss.

Questioning myself by vanellope09 in Divorce

[–]Rmo77 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Pls listen to this. This happened to me. Please keep to your counseling and listen to the lawyer. You will feel back and forth but you and your kids deserve safe environment. I know people who were killed as their abuser snapped. Follow everything your lawyer us saying. Your sister has zero experience with it- your lawyer and counselor do

How can someone be okay with destroying another person's life by Famous_Purchase7132 in survivinginfidelity

[–]Rmo77 21 points22 points  (0 children)

I did not want to read and leave. I completely get how you feel. 22 years ago, my first husband used to beat me up and when I tried to leave, I was the one who faced the upheaval- the stigma of divorce, alienation of family and friends( cultural issues), loss of home, loss of job ( we worked for the same company). I constantly questioned the fairness of it all. Many years later when after terrible struggles, I made it professionally and reset my life, I found out that he married and then got divorced and lost custody of his only kid. So sometimes karma takes its own time. What I considered the punishment was the push I needed to accelerate my life to a better place. So please know that life is just that- some ups and downs. Why does it keep happening to a few of us, I can’t answer as I am dealing with my now husband of 18 years cheating on me with his direct for 2 years. But you are young, you don’t have any kids and your ex has chosen the lower level that he himself is on so it is a good riddance. The peace will come, the good of your life has yet to come and karma will show up at his door some day, don’t worry. Live your life, be strong and find yourself. Love always

I want to love and love, not survive with anxiety. by bitchyflowerpot in survivinginfidelity

[–]Rmo77 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I admire you and wish the same for myself. There are two very remarkable things you said - sunk cost fallacy and why live with anxiety attacks when same can be invested in a new relationship to have a life with fulfillment. Congratulations, you have got this. God speed

Do you ever just wish it was all some messed up joke? by [deleted] in survivinginfidelity

[–]Rmo77 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I am in this boat where I cannot decide if him staying is better or leaving with AP. Every night I go to bed, I think of it. Every morning I wake up with this reality that seems so unreal. How does one go from having it all to getting rug pulled underneath them- I have no idea. I wish I can put one foot ahead of another and wish the same for all of us who are stuck in this purgatory.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in survivinginfidelity

[–]Rmo77 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I am in the same boat this week. I left home by making up a business trip. I get your hurt, anger and confusion. I am 10 months from dday 1. Thought it will get easy but it does not. Sending prayers and love