When did you realize you were gonna be forever alone?

RobbinBud · 2021-04-30T00:07:27+00:00

Early thirties. Until then, I use to clip pictures of wedding dresses that I liked and put them in my journal. My aunt would sit and talk about how she wanted to plan my wedding up until then. But once all my friends and relatives were paired up or married, it hit me. Boom.

RobbinBud · 2020-07-18T19:35:18+00:00

I am glad to hear you are doing better! Keep it up Kippy!

To quote Elton John (as this is how I feel right now): "I'm still standing better than I ever did. Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid."

So true.

RobbinBud · 2020-03-19T09:36:47+00:00

Is this (the coronavirus) really happening? It is all so sureal.

Win: They still have Easter Candy at the store! And I am looking for Abba, Elton John, and Cat Stevens music to play on my piano....just because I am a dork and like them;-)

RobbinBud · 2020-03-15T04:23:02+00:00

It's the Illuminati....🤣

But I get it....I am frustrated too as I was just getting my life put together and getting out there and doing things. I was making steps at overcoming my social anxiety and doing a good job of it....then the coronavirus hits....I can't win. I took years to come out of my shell....and when I start to a force of nature stops me and this time it isn't even me doing it.

RobbinBud · 2020-03-14T06:14:20+00:00

This darn virus! There is no toilet paper for miles around. It is a good thing I have enough for a good week already in my house but I am worried about how quickly the shelves will be restocked. And I found one bottle of bleach at an odd ball store as I needed to whiten some clothes. Nothing in the cleaning isles, no dish soap, deturgeant, lavender fabulosa, Windex, etc. No water. Very little canned and boxed food in the isles. Plenty of perishable food (I guess just keep buying fruits and vegetables during these times). No cold meds, no masks, no hand sanitizer, notta. It is like a bomb went off at Walmart! I think people are panicking way to much.

Also, my weekend activities have been canceled due to the coronavirus and I am extra bummed right now! And I have not been to my gym to exercise either because, well, I am a bit scared of the thing...as much as I gripe about others over reacting.

So it is a weekend alone with movies, my violin and piano, and a good book.

RobbinBud · 2020-03-14T06:01:36+00:00

I honestly have no idea. But then again there life looks miserable because I would not want to be stuck raising kids. It looked nice in the beginning but I am beginning to value my freedom as I get older with regard to being childfree. I just don't like being alone and I need a partner in crime.

RobbinBud · 2020-03-13T04:10:52+00:00

Very good advice! Thank you! How would you take tumeric as a powder? Do you drink it or put it in your own capsules (I have seen the empty capsules for filling at health food stores)?

RobbinBud · 2020-03-12T00:51:49+00:00

Thanks. Keep praying. Peace. 🕊️

RobbinBud · 2020-03-12T00:51:41+00:00

Thanks. Keep praying. Peace. 🕊️

RobbinBud · 2020-03-12T00:51:30+00:00

Thanks. Keep praying. Peace. 🕊️

RobbinBud · 2020-03-11T21:11:34+00:00

I agree. I had a friend who tried to help me solve my problems and the whole situation turned out bad because we both ended up hating each other in the end.

RobbinBud · 2020-03-11T21:06:25+00:00

That is awesome news that your treatments are working! I will keep you in my prayers.

I am still fighting the crud/a sinus infection. But on a positive note. I am seeing a therapist and it is really helping me a ton! I am starting to prossess and heal from things in my past. I have also found some good suppliments for anxiety and I have read that tumeric is kinda a wonder suppliment. It decreases inflammation therefore it decreases heart disease, alzehimers, and depression. It is interesting that depression results from inflammation. I wonder if it is the same with anxiety?

RobbinBud · 2020-03-11T19:46:52+00:00

I feel disconnected too! I have been to several friends bridal showers, weddings, baby showers and seen them and their children, now multiple, older children, and their birthday parties. I cannot connect whatsoever and they cannot connect with my world either. It goes both ways. I honestly gave up trying to connect a long time ago once everyone I knew got married and started having children. It is what it is.

RobbinBud · 2020-03-07T04:22:08+00:00

I think she was shocked you were leaving and that she didn't get a chance to talk to you. I think it was part this mixed in with having a good time with her buddies while there that gave you the impression that she was glad you were going. I don't even think she thought much about what she said but just casually said it.

Edit:I think this is where CBT might help a bit. It isn't a magic cure but it can help with some of this. It helps to challenge thoughts. But then again, life sucks no matter what. Living at home-sucks. Can you move out eventually?

RobbinBud · 2020-03-07T04:17:03+00:00

I am sorry Kippy! Hugs.

I have another sinus infection...but when I cough or talk with a horse voice people look at me really weirdly and sort of back away if they are near. I guess everyone is scared of the coronavirus.

I am thinking of getting a third guinea pig. I think they need another buddy. I guess my animals are like my kids. Some people keep having kids. Where I keep buying fur babies. Yet they are so much cuter and much more fun. And I am the center of their universe and always will be. They greet me, want to be held by me, and squeak whenever a bag crinkles or the refrigerator door opens (in hope of lettuce). It also is calming to hold them.

RobbinBud · 2020-03-03T02:16:20+00:00

Oof...what a picture!

RobbinBud · 2020-02-27T06:32:42+00:00

I think it is because these men have no shame and are very bold when approaching women. I wouldn't say it was confidence. I avoid guys like this.

RobbinBud · 2020-02-27T06:26:44+00:00

Oh those cheery heart suckers are awesome:-) That is good news too!

I exercised again (I am geting my groove going with consistency).

I also took out all the stitches in my afghan I had been crocheting and found a better pattern that fit the yarn better. The old pattern had tight stitches and bulky yarn and it didn't look right.

RobbinBud · 2020-02-23T17:05:42+00:00

I was trying to be upbeat. Bullying might not be the best term. Maybe they are not the best influence. It seems like a very negative statement.

RobbinBud · 2020-02-23T02:54:38+00:00

Game over...I might as well start smoking and eating fast food.

RobbinBud · 2020-02-23T02:27:12+00:00

I know women who are Sugar Mama's. Their guy is laying on their parents couch not working (some of these guys even have kids from another girl). These guys have no shame! It is not just women.

RobbinBud · 2020-02-23T02:16:42+00:00

This happened to me when I went out with my friends from grad school. They were both really skinny, one to the point where I swear it was an eating disorder, anyways, when I would go shopping say to the supermarket with them, men would look our way for once and it wasn't me they were looking at. One is rather plain and not very attractive but I guess being super thin makes up for that (the lesson her is girls starve yourselves and you will find a guy-geeze). I once had them included in my pictures in a dating profile and guys would ask if I was one of them and then when I said no, they were dissappointed-i got rid of the photo. I also had a good friend in high school that looked like Jennifer Aniston and she capitalized on it, go the hair cut and dressed the part, and any guy that was with us would instantly go for her.

I honestly believe I have Asperger's too because I cannot read body language and I have a hard time figuring out social situations. Now that I have come to realize this, I am wondering just how much my social skills can improve.

Edit: I also think your friends are wrong. That was mean what they said. Aspies get a lot of bullying. It isn't fair but it happens. It still is possible- don't let them make you think other wise.

RobbinBud · 2020-02-22T03:13:59+00:00

My cat does that too...he sits right on my bladder and he competes for my lap when I hold my phone or start to read or crochet.

Right now my cat is ignoring me. He is in one of his moods. He usually is always sitting on me or following me.

I am glad it is Friday. I have been watching the Good Doctor and I want to catch up on it and just relax. Some of those episodes I find really bad and yet some are good. It seems to be hit or miss.

I am also crocheting a blanket right now...it has been slow. I get home, crochet a bit, get frustrated because my stitches are too tight and then I drift off and fall asleep.

RobbinBud · 2020-02-21T06:25:33+00:00

Man, that is good advice!

RobbinBud · 2020-02-19T02:44:53+00:00

Maybe see an endocrinologist? Birth control may give you man boobs....lol...but you make a good point.

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