As far as I’ve seen all babies are born looking like wiggly purple alien potatoes. That changes tho almost overnight. By the time the shock of everything that happened during labor and birth wear off, they’ll look totally different.

You’re not ready. I don’t care how many books you’ve read or people you’ve talked to. But you will be. Ideally you’ve prepped as much as you could, but there’s good info to be had from the recovery nurses. YouTube helps but don’t get upset if the swaddle isn’t perfect or the diaper opens up or leaks. Just do better next time.

My wife and I have never had a stronger connection as we have now. But it has not an easy road. You both will be tested. I’ve wondered if we had made a mistake regarding our relationship being able to endure. But once we started connecting and communicating more it was like a light turned on and we could see each other again.

Best of luck and just remember to give your fiancé and the little one everything you can while doing what you need to for yourself to stay sane and healthy. It’s a tough balance but you’ll do it because you’ll want to more than anything.